*joey's p.o.v*
After Daniel left that night, I couldn't sleep. I was tossing a turning, unable to close my eyes. The space beside me was empty, a cold reminder that Daniel is gone. Bunching my blankets up, I curled in to a ball. Not even blankets can keel me warm.
There's a constant emptiness in my heart. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't reach Daniel. A hope formed in my mind that if I fell asleep, maybe I'd see Daniel in my dreams. Even with that on my mind, I couldn't sleep.
Every now and then I would reach out for Daniel, but touch nothing. The sun started to shine though my curtains making me cover my head with a pillow. All I want to do was sit in darkness alone. But of course I can't, I have school.
Next to me my alarm went off. It took every single part of me to turn it off and sit up. A sudden rage filled me. Rage that Daniel is gone, that his parents did this. Standing up abruptly, I pushed everything off my desk angrily. It made a big crash, probably waking up everyone.
When I was finished with my anger, I collapsed on to my bed. There was a knock on my door and my mom walked in. She was one of the last people I want to talk to, but right now I need someone to talk to.
"Joey, what was that noise? Are you okay?" she asked worriedly. I sat up, patting the spot next to me. My mom looked surprised I did that, but sat next to me.
"I just pushed everything off my desk. I'm fine." I said. "But I do need someone to talk to." Before my mom could say anything I poured my heart out. At the end of my rant I was crying. I hate that I'm crying so much. But it was nice to have my mom comforting me.
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My mom left and I flopped back on to my bed, staring at the ceiling. I knew no matter how much I wanted to stay home, I had to go to school. Forcing myself up, I changed in to sweatpants and a band shirt, not bothering with my hair.
In the kitchen there was no one. For something easy to make I chose cereal. There weren't many options in pantry, so I settled with corn flakes. Boosting myself on to the counter, I ate in silence. The silence was calming, but was broke when Nicole walked in to the kitchen.
"Ready to go?" she asked. I nodded, putting my bowl in the sink. Grabbing my bag, I followed Nicole to her car. As she pulled out she told me, "You know, soon you can get that boot taken off. Start skating again." Nodding again, I looked out the window. Rain was starting to drop on the windows, the gray skies reflecting my mood.
All to soon we made it to school. Nicole shouted a good-bye as she drove off. I kept my head down as I entered the school. It was obvious people were staring, but I didn't want to meet their eyes. Spinning the combination lock, I opened my locker and put some of my school stuff in there.
Since my pace was so slow people had to walk around me. I barely made it to class on time. Taking my seat in the back I tried to pay attention to class. On the side margin of my notes I made little doodles. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't pay full attention. I missed a lot of notes because of the distraction.
I kept watching the clock, waiting for the end of the day. After what seemed like forever, the school day was done. When I was at my locker, David walked up to me. "Dude, we haven't talked in ages." he said.
"Yeah." I said quietly. "I have to go." Turning away from him, I walked out of the school. There was still a slight limp when I walk, but it's getting better. My dad was waiting for me, tapping the steering wheel to the beat of a song.
When I got in, he asked, "How did the day go?"
"Okay." I replied blandly. That was true. The day went okay. Not good, not bad, just okay. I just wanted to get home and lay on my bed doing nothing, but I have homework. Might as well get it done fist, I thought.
As soon as I entered the door I went straight to my room. Sitting at my desk, I took out my geometry homework. I'm not a bad student, I get steady b's. For me, school is fairly easy. But for some reason I can't understand a thing.
I probably sat at my desk for a good two hours trying to finish three pages of homework. My mom called me down to dinner, but I wasn't hungry. Finally I gave up and sat on my bed, on m phone.
There was a text from David but I ignored it. Opening Instagram I saw all these couples at school hugging and stuff and it made me sick. I don't mind some p.d.a but don't post this stuff on Instagram. Closing that, I opened Facebook. There were so many posts about where people where going. Seeing all these kids going to expensive colleges makes me jealous.
Even though I've saved up money, I only have enough for community college and my family doesn't have the funds to enroll me in an actual college. To get in a good college I'm gonna need to get some sort of scholarship.
Putting away my school stuff I climbed in to bed. I reached over and shut my lamp off. For a while I was awake, thinking about Daniel and where he could be. Soon after I fell in to a dreamless sleep.
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im not sure when this book will end. every time i say a certian chapter i go past it.
but soon i'll be taking covers that are entered for my next book.
~Rose♥
(sorry, this chapter feels short to me)
