"I can't." I whispered wishing it was that easy. He looked into my hurt sea blue eyes and then sighed. "Why not? You shouldn't have to put up with it." He groaned glancing down at the news paper that was resting on his lap. "If I run away then he is just going to beat mum or Josh and I am not doing that to them."
"Wait... Why doesn't he beat Josh... Josh is older?" He asked confused and I shrugged my shoulders. "He started on mum years ago and I got in the way so he transferred to me. I think its because Josh doesn't mention it or do anything to piss him off." I cried and he hugged me. "Let me move in here then." He said and then this time I laughed. "No fucking way. He will kill you in his sleep!" I laughed and he sighed.
"I'd rather me then you." He said eventually. There was a loud and long knock on my door and we both froze. "It's Josh." Josh said and I got up to answer the door. He walked in and looked at Jack. "Dick move bro." I looked at Josh carefully and studied his face, his left eye was swollen and very red like someone had punched him. I quickly locked the door behind him and then opened my draw finding the cream that I used for punches. "Come here." I said sitting him down. I carefully rubbed in the cream and then looked at him and tried not to cry.
"I'm so sorry Josh." I said and I hugged him tightly. "It wasn't your fault." He said and then he made a sideways glance at Jack who was getting his phone out and dialling the number for the police. He threw me off him and then pounced on Jack pining him down. "Do not dial that number Jack." He growled and I grabbed Jacks phone. He looked at me shocked but I mouthed 'sorry'.
"You can't keep going on like this." He complained and I shook my head. "He will kill you Jack." I whispered barely audible. "I will kill you if you ever grass on him." My brother growled. I pushed Josh off Jack and then jumped on him myself. "Listen to me, if you do it then you will just make it worse for us because he will not hesitate in killing any one of us." I cried and then gently leaned down and kissed him. "Please." I said when we broke apart.
"No way am I allowing you two to start dating." My brother said his face red with anger. I gave him the 'i'll tell you later' look and then got off Jack. "I promise I wont. Can I have my phone back though?" He asked smiling and I nodded handing him back his phone. My brother gave me a judging look but I just sighed. "I'm going back to my room now." He said once the cream had disappeared. I nodded and Jack stayed by my side. "I'm staying here if that's alright." He said and my brother sighed. "Come say bye before you leave." He said.
We sat in silence for a moment and then I got up my computer and logged onto YouTube. There was a new interview uploaded with Derek about me. I clicked onto it and watched it intently with Jack.
Interviewer - So How was the warped tour?
Derek - Amazing like usual. We met some amazing people, I wrote some new songs that were inspired by those people. It was the best one so far.
Interviewer - That's good, can you give us a little bit of info about these new songs?
Derek - One is called Kids In Love and its about young love and mistakes etc. Another one is Call Me Hopeless but Not Romantic which was inspired by a special someone.
Interviewer - What was the favourite band you met at the tour?
Derek - Deafening Silence.
(Long silence from interviewer)
Interviewer - Derek can you tell me why?
Derek - They were inspired by Mayday Parade and there isn't many girl rock bands out there at the moment. They were also four very amazing and talented girls. Delilah, Ashlee, Katie and Francesca are definitely going to make it big.
Interviewer - I don't mean to be a pain but please tell me what is going on between you and lead singer Francesca?
Derek - Okay... Well as I think you know they opened the tour for us. On one of their performances the girls thought it was a good idea to surprise Francesca by me singing a song with her. I have always been Francesca's role model so singing with me would mean everything for her they said. We sung the song and then came of stage and she fell, I caught her and then kissed her. My girlfriend and daughter turned up and yeah.
Interviewer - Do you have feelings for Francesca?
Derek - I have a daughter.
Interviewer - Okay... What do you think about all the hate she has been getting?
Derek - What hate?
There was a long silence whilst the interviewer showed Derek the hate I was getting. I saw his eyes flare with anger as he read through it and then he sighed.
Derek - Guys, Francesca isn't a home wrecker, slut, or a whore. Although I am not proud of what I did I have no shame in admitting that it was me who came onto her. Look at her she is beautiful and talented and I hadn't seen my girlfriend in over six months. Francesca and I became very good friends in the little time we spent together and our two bands also became very close. One thing led to another and I don't know what came over me. I admit I was very attracted to the girl but I am in a serious relationship and I am trying my hardest to make it up to my girlfriend.
Interviewer - Well that's good...Do you regret the kiss though? What was the kiss like?
Derek - I do regret the kiss yes. The kiss was a kiss. I would rather not go into details.
I clicked off the video and threw myself into Jacks arms. I needed to feel loved more then anything at that moment. I kissed him deeply and ripped off his shirt. "Are you sure?" He asked in between kisses. I looked at his toned abbs and wished it was Derek underneath me but nodded. "I'm ready." I said as he slipped of my underwear and we were finally both laying there naked.
I woke up and groaned. Shit... Did I really just have sex with Jack? I rolled over and noticed that he wasn't in bed next to me. For a moment I wished I had dreamed it but then he walked back into my room in his pants. "Morning sleeping beauty." He whispered climbing into bed next to me. I moved over so I wasn't touching him and then sighed.
I had seriously fucking this up.
"You didn't tell me you were a virgin?" He said after a while and I laughed. "Well it was a bit of a turn off in the middle of stripping me saying 'oh yeah I'm a virgin...'" I groaned and he laughed. "Nothing about you is a turn off. "You need to go." I finally said rolling over to face him. "Why?" He asked and I groaned. "Just go before they wake up!" I practically shouted and he groaned.
Just as he was walking out of the front door he turned to me and sighed. "You can't live the rest of your life in fear." and then he jumped into his car and silently drove of. I watched him and then climbed back into my bed. I text Ash and waited for her reply.
I know it's early but I've fucked up, can I come round? x - F
Sure x - Ash.
I got into my car and drove round to her house where she welcomed me with a huge hug. I tried not to cry and looked at her in the eyes. "What's happened babe?" She said and we sat down with coffee. "Last night Jack was round. He came into my room to talk and so did my brother, they both saw the newspaper article. Anyway I kind of kissed Jack just to compare it too Derek. Then I had a notification on my laptop and it was about a interview with Derek about me and I got really pissed of watching it. Well Jack was there and I wanted to take my mind of things and yaknow." I said and she looked at me confused.
"I don't have a clue, what?"
"We had sex!" I groaned, she watched me for a moment and then laughed. "Was it your? Your first time?" She asked awkwardly and I nodded blushing. "Really?" She asked again and then I looked at her... What the fuck did it matter? She looked at me and smiled evilly.
"What's up with you?" I asked her and she started rolling around the floor laughing. "Ashlee for fucks sake what's going on?" I asked her once again and she just started laughing even harder. "Someone text me." She said and then pushed me out of the door and told me to go home... Like what the fuck.
