When we can. [Cryaotic x Reader] [DISCONTINUED]

Chapter 12.

     He smoothed down your hair, resting his hand on your shoulder for a moment. The silence was killing you, this shattered the dream of being with him. He gave you the most sincere look and went to say something, but you turned away standing up. You couldn't face him, you were humiliated. Wiping your damp cheeks and rubbing your eyes you stretch and say   
     "Should we continue the ga-game..?" your voice gave out on game.
     "(Y/N) listen" he said, you heard him stand up and walk behind you.
     "No no it's fine! Sorry to uh bring that up again, can we just play the game?" turning to him you see a worried expression. Not meeting his eyes you try to go back to his desk but before you could get there he grabs your arm.
     "Ryan I don't want to talk about it. Forget it" you know what he'll say, it's not mutual I'm sorry. Your arms relax to your sides but he doesn't let go, you keep your head turned away from his direction.
     "Listen to me" he said with a startling tone making you look at him, he looked worried.    
      "(Y/N) you know I have feelings for you-hopefully you wouldn't be so daft to not notice-but I don't want to lose our friendship. We have it so good! I love you I really do but I can't risk losing you as a friend" anger swells inside you. You don't give yourself enough time to think about what you'll reply with before you yank your arm from his grasp and shoot back with
     "That is such a bullshit answer! If we're such good friends then a relationship falling out wouldn't effect us being friends now would it? If it wasn't mutual just say so, having to discuss this again is already painful enough!" he pulls you into a hug you try and push him away but you're too tired to fight it, you don't wrap your arms around him.
"I know we have a strong friendship. One that wouldn't break for anything, even if we dated and it didn't work out we would still be friends. You're being selfish just take a minute" his selfish comment stung a bit but you push him off of you and take a deep breath and walk to his bed.
     You plop onto the bed face first into a pillow. And you feel the mattress shift soon after, he sat down.
     "Give me some time, Chey is still getting to me. I loved her too you know?" he sighs heavily and you sit up. Cry has his face in his hands which are propped up on his knees. You crawl behind him and wrap your arms around his shoulders, like he did when you first met.
     "Remember? This was how you first hugged me when first met" he slides his hands out from around his face and rests them on your arms. "Let's go for a walk" you suggest and slide off the bed while dragging him along with you. Grabbing your bag before you head up the stairs you both leave the house.

The only place you know is the duck pond so you subconsciously walk there. It's rather dark out, the time is 7:30. The walk there is eerily quiet, not many cars pass you by and no conversation is made. Once you get to the pond you both sit.
"I'm sorry, this wasn't what I promised you, this first day sucked" you say as honestly as you could.
"It really wasn't too bad, I think we both just needed some air" he takes a deep breath "we've been cooped up in that basement too long"
"Agreed" You take out your phone and notice Russ already texted you.

Russ- Suuuuup I got the stream set up so we'll be ready around 3/4ish tomorrow
(Y/N)- kaay thanks you da best

Cry gives you a questionable glance and you reply "Oh it was just Russ, wanted to check in"
"See? Already replacing me!" he lightly punches your arm, you laugh a bit and enjoy the cold air around you. You shiver a bit, it's colder then you thought. You guys are near water, but it should be warmer. Cry notices your shutter and puts his arm on the bench back, motioning for you to scoot in. After that emotional argument you could use some harmless cuddles, you slide in. You whisper "sliding into your DM's like"
"OK nope!" Cry says sliding away from you, you laugh and feign a sad face and he brings you back into his embrace "I'm just kidding you dork"
After a couple of moments you decide it's too chilly to be out here plus you're STARVING. You can't even remember when the last time you ate, riiiight the chips a few hours ago. You need food and warmth right now.
"C-Ryan" never gonna get used to that.
"Hmm?"
"I'm starving and I'm gonna freeze to death. I'm in need of Cheese pizza and 10 blankets please"
"okay okay I'll order when we get back" you both stand up and start walking.
"No no no, it'll take too long can you order now??" you say extending your words in a clingy and annoying matter.
"Yeah yeah okay hold on.." his words seem to fade once he opens his phone.
"What is it Ryan?"
"When did Chey call me?"