When we can. [Cryaotic x Reader] [DISCONTINUED]

Chapter 19.

    [Heads up I had to change your age to be closer to Ryan's, (Y/N) is now 24]

~flashback 5 years~
After a very stressful day at college you hurry into your dorm. One of your friends calls out for you and you call back saying "Sorry I'm busy today!" without changing your speed. Luckily you were the only one in the dorm building that got your own room so you didn't have to worry about disrupting a roommate.
     You quickly unlock the door and step inside, your back sliding against the door. You throw your bag aside and sit there relaxing, letting the whole day's memories pass by.
      Today was the day you had to hand in your finale project, which was worth 25% of your grade alone. You did your best on that project working on it whenever you had the chance. But it was over so now you have free time, you stand up and walk over to the little kitchen and grab a snack. Then go to your bed and get out your laptop, you didn't need it in class today so you left it here charging. Once you open it you realize your buddy Cry is online, he's a mysterious internet friend, but you've known him for almost 2 years. A buddy whom you have budding feelings for. And he is the only one who can help you unwind from college. So you boot up steam.

(Your/username)- Sup
Cryaotic- Hey there, how were classes?
(Y/U)-ugh they were awful ;-;, handed in that project tho
Cryaotic- YAY! I mean bad to a bad day but y'know the project being done is good
(Y/U)- lol Ikr lets do something
Cryaotic- what do you want to do?
Cryaotic- oh wait
(Y/U)- waiting..?
Cryaotic- do you want to skype? I wanted to bring it up for a while now but also I want to say something kinda important..
(Y/U)- you're not dying are you?!
Cryaotic- no no nothing like that what's your skype?

     You give him your skype and add him on your contacts. You're confused as to what he wants to talk to you about but you'll let him explain. You've liked this guy for awhile now, but have never seen his face or even heard his voice so it's been hard to rationalize your feelings. You grow anxious waiting for him to call you. 'Nothing will be that bad' you think to yourself. Your stomach is a cage to butterflies, your mind wandering thinking about if he would confess or even if he felt the same.

Call from: Cryaotic

     Your mouse hovers over the accept key, you click. It's silent for a minute until he chuckles nervously.
"H-hey (Y/N)"
"Hiya Cry" you reply, his voice is amazing. You've heard nice voices before but his beats most of them.
"Right uhm what I wanted to say" he trails off. This is kinda awkward but you forget it, your heart is going crazy. "I" he pauses, taking a deep breath "listen this is probably obvious, but I need to say it anyway. To get it off my chest and all." He sighs heavily "I like you, God I feel like I'm back in middle school." your face automatically flushes. "I know we don't 'know' each other and all but I guess I couldn't help it? I mean you're awesome so" he trails off.
"I like you too Cry" you pause there is a nagging in your gut. "I just am afraid I might be getting cat fished you know?"
~present day~

Your memory is blurry, but you vaguely remember your first Skype call with Ry. You had talked to him for hours after expressing your feelings and concern. You remember agreeing to stay as friends, because it would be better. You also remember crying after the crushing news. Though you both moved onto people in real life, your feelings for him did not leave. There was always a section of your heart dedicated to Ryan. But now, you're laying on a blanket under the stars with him, in real life, not in some online simulation on a screen. Someone who is with you, who can hold you or who can talk and you can listen to their voice unmuffled.
"I mean" you start. Not knowing where this will go. "We can try" you look over to him. His face brightens and your smile gleams back. He goes to hug you, before you put a hand in front of his face motioning for him to stop. "I gotta warn you, I'm not an easy catch" you wink and he laughs hugging you anyway. You snuggle into his neck and enjoy his embrace.
You two sit in comfortable silence for another couple of minutes until you interrupt "I'm freezing". Your pj pants/shorts are clearly not warm enough for this weather. You had no idea what the time was but you didn't care, it was too nice of a moment. You sit up, breaking Ryan's hug.
     "Do you have any other late night ideas? Or do you want to just head back to my place?" he leans on his right elbow, lifting his torso ever so slightly.
     "Woah! That's forward!" you say putting your hands up and scooting away from him. You both laugh and head back to the car.
     There was no awkward tension in the car ride to his house, like there was after confessing the first time. You two were immature back then, especially him. Now it was just calm, just yourself and someone who felt the same way you did, driving home.
     You bring your legs up to your chest to warm up, Ry turned on the heat system in the car but it took a bit to warm up. You open your bag at your feet and search for your phone. Turning it on it read 12:04am.
     "Holy shit Cry!" you say, Cry slipping out.
"What is it?! Are you alright?!" he says panicky. 'Good job freaking out the driver (Y/N)!' you say in your head.
     "We've been out for 5 hours!"
"Jesus, the most I've been out of the house I weeks!" he joked. You chuckle and stare out the window making small talk with him. Once the small talk dies down your mind starts to wander to what you two had discussed.
     ''I'd like to try that again' so he wants to date me? Would that be a good idea, long distant relationships are hard work. Especially when I already spent 7 years waiting until I could at least hug the guy!' you drop deep into thought, not paying attention to the car you're in. 'But I'm with him now. And I can be with him, it shouldn't be that hard right? I've been waiting so long to hear him say that, so why am I so hesitant?' Ryan's phone starts to buzz and you see the caller. It's Cheyenne. 'He also said if she were to want him back he wouldn't be able to say no. Would I really be able to top her? Yeah I know I wouldn't be as bitchy with him, and we've already been best friends all this time so I got that over her but' Ry picks up the phone and reads the name. 'Is he trying to replace her with me?' you stay silent looking at him. Your thoughts getting to you severely.
     The phone buzzes multiple times, she's not dropping the call and he's not picking it up. After several rings he pulls over, pushing the phone in front of you. You rub your eyes getting rid of the building tears.
     "Please, can you ask her what she wants? I can't" he sounds desperate. You pause looking into his eyes.
     "I really don't want to but" you grab the phone from him. "I won't say no to you" almost immediately you hit answer call.

"It's (Y/N)." you say sternly into the phone.
"Oh. Uhm" she trails off, probably forgetting who you are "Oh!" you guessed right. "Is he there?"
"Yes he's in the car next to me"
"Why didn't he pick up?"
"Talking on the phone and driving is dangerous" you roll your eyes. Then immediately grow up, Ry is watching you after all.
"Can I talk to him? I did call his phone not yours"
You motion to the phone and he shakes his head.
"He uh" you pause "I'll pass the message onto him for you"
"Uh sure. Tell him I miss him"
"She misses you." you say bleakly.
"And I made a mistake"

     "She made a mistake. Wait I'm not going to be a go between for you two. Ryan take the dumb phone Jesus, I'm going to sit outside" you say forcing him to take the phone from you. Anger and annoyance fill your head and voice. Before you close the door again, you hear a faint hello.
     Even though you were freezing the minute you opened the door, you preferred the cold rather then hearing them chat. Gritting your teeth you sit in front of the car, in the headlights and fumble around with the gravel underneath you.