My life is tainted
From all of the pain,
All of the tears,
All of the blood
That I've shed.
Everyone looks at me
And sees
A beautiful person.
That is just the thing
I want you to see.
I don't want you
To see me
Hurting,
Crying,
Screaming
In the middle
Of the night
As I wake
From nightmares
That keep me up
All night.
It's tiring
To keep this mask on,
To pretend.
Yet I do it anyways,
So that you don't see
The tainted darkness
That envelopes my brain--
Every second,
Not even stopping in my dreams.
