My Poems

Dead but Alive

*Dead but alive:

I sing my heart out

Even when the tears are running down my cheeks

Putting a smile on my face

Even though my world is crumbling around me

Feel guilty for being sad

I know people have it worse

But I can't help the hurt inside

I'm wearing down here

They say I can trust then.

But it only hurts me in the end

I'm sorry Im this way

But please except me for who I am

It could be past or present

Either way I'm hurting

Please don't be mad

I just want help

I can't show you how I'm really feeling

Or how much pain I hold

But just know its killing me

Soon all will be left is my body

My souls is dying a little by little

Every time I feel this way

Cutting doesn't help

But maybe it can take the pain away

No one can understand

No one knows

How bad it is to feel this way

They act like they could understand

But it's really fake

Maybe they can help

Or maybe this all a mistake

Sorry to all

But I am done

Miss you

love you

Now I shall be gone

Letting my soul be free

Let the pain disappear forever

Sorry I can't stand alone any longer

It was all to much

If you truly loved me

You would've noticed long ago

Those fake smiles

Those scars on me

They were all signs

I made up story for everyone of then

Put a smile on my face said I was fine

But my eyes held the truth

The pain from behind

They had my story deep inside

Showing how badly I was hurt

By you never saw

You never cared

So I let go

Stop trying to fight the war inside me

They won

I couldn't take it anymore

There is nothing left to say

Except for goodbye