My Fucked Up Life.

You & I

Have you ever put a playlist from YouTube on that someone else made and just let it play as background music.

And it's good and you're getting your house work or homework done.

But then
One song comes on.

One song that you shared with someone else to express past feelings comes on.

Or the song someone you love sang to you at the top of a Ferris wheel.

The song you watched him slow dance with his girlfriend to.

Or a song that you sent to them that explained your complicated situation perfectly.

Songs that made you cry.

Have you ever had such a powerful song come on..

And you just stop whatever you might be doing.

And you sit and you cry.

You sit and cry uncontrollably because that song brings all the memories back and all the pain.

And you don't skip it.

No.

You get your headphones and you put it on repeat.

You remember everything it meant and still means and who it reminds you of.

You remember all the memories.

Happy and sad

You wonder if he feels this way to you.

Or if he even gives you any thought.

Or if maybe it happens to him to.

But you listen

And you cry.

And you keep listening and crying until you fall asleep in your wet pillow.