Hey empty void,
I've started my medication, and it's kicked in but I'm still feeling these feelings.
I'm lost is the pit.
But I'm not because my mom and everyone says they never hurt me and they love me?
So that's what I have to believe.
But I don't
I know they have to say tht there Christian and human and if they didn't they would look bad.
I'm so lonely I want a boyfriend or girlfriend and I'm seriously at the point where I might give my virginity or life for it.
I feel as if God has even abandoned me.
But I'm the Leigh leader with another girl for my youth group which is like the president of the council. We lead.
So I have to act all happy
And giddy
And religious
And alive.
But really I'm dead.
I plan on doing it after New Years
If I don't have anyone by then.
Then I'm leaving.
I'm tired of the mental abuse from my family and community
I'm so tired but they do not give one shit.
Because white girls, don't have problems.
I have daddy issues
I have body problems.
I have health problems
I'm weird
Im useless
I'm gone soon but whatever I had hope this summer and nothing happen.
Bye empty void
YOU ARE READING
"I'm Fine"
Non-FictionThis starts as a story (which is mine) but I decided to just make this my journal thing. I will let y'all get to know me when I get 15 views. And someone comments. Like my name I'm lonely. **** this may be triggering****
