RANTS BY BAY

Crushes

I am pansexual (I am attracted to all genders) so like I have this crush on a girl. She also likes me I think but I'm not completely sure. The thing is my life has like sort-of revolved around her while my crush is happening. Its just always texting her and stuff. We do take breaks from each other but neither her or I are super talkative. I can be super talkative if the person I'm talking to is talkative. She isn't talkative. At all. Thats alright with me cause I like her for her, but it does get kinda annoying when you cant find anything to talk about.

Theres also when you find somebody else aesthetically attracting and are looking at them then you stop and think "what about my crush ____". Then after that I feel guilty about checking somebody out even though I'm not even in a relationship with them yet.

And theres also wanting to ask them out but being too afraid of the rejection. I've actually never asked anybody out. I've only had 3 relationships ever cause I'm pretty young but 2 of them where sort-of forced onto me. (its alright guys nothing happened that I didn't agree to they where just kinda shitty relationships). So yeah. I wanna ask this girl out but I'm super afraid of the rejection. We also have a pretty decent friendship at this point and I don't wanna ruin that.

And its the worst when a crush doesn't like you back or friend-zones you. I've been rejected plenty of times but that was in like 3rd grade soooo... I know it sucks though.

being played. Just wtf people thats really unnecessary. Don't you have anything better to do with your life than play people?

Ok. I'm out. Later guys.
-Bay