Life is Unpredictable even for a Queen

~A Note and a Test~

Ever since I met Alana and the whole kissing thing that happened between us I've been curious to know why she thinks I'm her husband. I mean come on she even went and convinced August to help her. She is beautiful but why me?

I mean she knows things about me that only Jessica and I know so it could technically be possible that we know each other. I was going crazy. Today was my day off, I didn't have to work or go to the institution so I just stayed home. I was just trying to relax so I just went to the balcony and sat back on the chair.

I closed my eyes and tried to ease my mind of Alana and her wild idea of being married to me. I start to doze off and that's when I see images of Alana play in front of me. I was wearing black almost pirate like clothes and I was at a castle holding a baby in my hands. I look up and Alana is next to me.

I looked so happy. That's when that image fades and I'm in a room and I'm looking out the window as I'm putting on my shirt. I glance over my shoulder and I see Alana walk up to me and she starts to gag. Almost as if she was nauseous because she was pregnant. That image fades and I'm in a ball room and I see her getting crowned.

She smiles at me and I'm holding on to her little daughter's hand. I gasp as I sat up. Did I just imagine all that? I looked around and I'm still on the balcony. Were these memories or were they things that my mind made up? I shook my head and tried to get rid of these thoughts. I walked back into the room and I started to clean.

I was putting away some papers into the drawer and I see some envelopes with pieces of ripped up paper inside. I tried to read over them but it was impossible to put them together. I kept seeing the words Milah, make sure, memories, Neal, remember, all these words were scattered throughout the pieces of ripped up paper.

What could they mean? Who was Milah? Neal? Memories? I put the pieces back into the envelope and just ignored them. I went to bathroom and I see a pregnancy test on the counter. It had a plus sign. I gasped. Is Jessica pregnant? I felt like my world just stopped.

I can't be a father, I mean sure she wanted to have a baby but I mean I don't remember being with her in that way. My mind was going crazy. I decided to leave the house and distract my mind of thought of me being a father.

I decided to go down to the farmers market that was on the pier close to my house. I loved going there and greeting the people who had their food stands there. I walked up to my favorite strawberry and watermelon stand. "Good morning Colin." Henrietta said with a huge smile. "Good morning." "How's your morning going?" I sigh. "A little confusing."

She gave me a baffled look as she was packing strawberries into a little basket. "How so?" I shrug. "I'm just getting this weird feeling that this might not be where I belong." She nods. "Well is there someone that you think is connected to where you think you belong?" I stood there thinking, Alana came to my mind and that's when Henrietta waves to someone. "August, Alana, so nice to see you."

I gasp as I turn around so they wouldn't see me. "Good morning Henrietta." I hear August say. "Hope you two have a good day." She says and I see Alana and August walking away holding hands. I don't know why but it bugged me to see them together like that. "Is it possible that Alana, is the one linked to where you belong?"

I turn around and gave Henrietta a weird look. "Do you know something about her?" She smiles. "Trust what she says, things don't always look as they appear." I gave her a baffled look. "Henrietta you know more don't you?" She smiles as she hands me the basket of strawberries. "I am but a simple farmer." I smiled and nodded. "Thanks." She nods.

"Don't fight it Colin." I walked away and I was just baffled. She knew something and I needed to find out what. I looked over at the end of the pier and I see them hugging. I turned around and just walked back home. I put the strawberries away and went to get the envelopes with the pieces of paper and tried my best to put them back together.

After an hour I was able to put the note together. "Milah I was able to get rid of Killian's memories, now it's up to you, make sure he doesn't remember. It's the only way that I can be with my love. Hope you have a good life in this new land and don't ever contact me again. Pleasure in doing business with you. Neal." I gasp. Was I that Killian?

But wait who's Milah, she must be someone else because I'm married to Jessica not Milah. I was just so confused and that's when I hear the door unlock. I gasp and I put the note back inside the envelope closed it and put in the drawer. Jessica walks into the room and runs up to me and kisses me.

"How are you doing honey?" I smiled as I backed away. "Good." She sat there baffled. "What's wrong?" I wanted to ask her about the note but I was more concerned about the pregnancy test. I went to the bathroom and I grabbed the test. I walked out and I showed it to her. She smiles. "Aren't you happy?"

I shook my head. "Jessica I told you I'm not ready for kids." She sighs. "You said you were ready to start a family." I sigh. "Yeah but I don't know.." She sighs. "You're not acting like yourself, you were happy with the fact that you might be a father and now you don't want too?" I sigh. "Take another test, I just want to make sure." She shakes her head.

"You think I would make up the fact that I'm pregnant." "Just take the damn test Jessica." She scoffs and runs to the bathroom. I sat on the bed and I was worried as can be. I can't be a father, not now. Not when I have so many questions, before Alana came into my life I was sure about Jessica but now not so much and after reading the letter I was more confused than ever.

Minutes pass by and she comes out crying. "It's negative." I sighed in relief but then I looked at Jessica's face and I was heartbroken. "I guess your wish came true." I shake my head. "Don't say that love, I just.." I hug her and she sobs like crazy.

"Hey give it a little time, we will become parents later. Right now let's just enjoy the time we have together, just us two." She nods. "Can we just lay down on the bed?" I nod. We laid down on the bed and she had her head on my chest and after a couple of minutes she fell asleep while still crying.

I felt like a total dirtbag, but I just can't continue one with what we have until I know for a fact what the hell is going on and if Alana is telling the truth. I stared at the ceiling as I had Jessica in my arms.