Eventually love

chapter 13

My body aches both inside and out, I couldn't believe what happened last night. My emotions flared to an all time high last night all thanks to Darius. Stupid stupid stupid scary Darius! I want to go home, I hate living in this mansion I just hate it. Back home I was free to do what I wanted when I wanted. I didn't have someone after me, I wasn't on anyone's to kill list. I was happy and content in my lonely life. Kara could stay here, she had made a place for Blake in her heart so easily, while Logan was squeezing his way through mine. I hate how I'm hurting him but I'm confused sometimes I enjoy Logan's company and the next I loathe it. Right now as I'm thinking I'm groaning at myself because once again I'll wake up in his arms with him having a beautiful smirk on his lips. I couldn't believe he kissed me last night, I had so many emotions running through me I tossed his kiss into a grave, right now my mind decided to dig it back up. It only made me mad how could he kiss me when I was hysterical! When I wasn't thinking straight? Logan! My mind shouted.

I tugged at Logan's chest trying to hide the pain, I will not show him that I am in pain it would not do him or me any good. I tugged again trying to get Logan to let me out of his seal tight embrace.

"Logan!" I yelled.

"Good morning" he smirked his usual smirk.

"Let go of me" I said in an emotionless tone.

"No, I'm not ready yet" he said his smirk turning into a full smile.

"You know how I'm feeling. So let go" I repeated.

"Actually I don't know how your feeling, your bloods out of my system" Logan said displeased.

"Good took long enough. This is awkward so let me go" I said again blushing.

"Nope" Logan said.

I breathed out heavily "Please" I said angrily while my cheeks radiated with heat.

"I need to ask you something and I know your answer will be no. But I'm going to do it even if you say no, so listen to me okay" Logan said to me and it only confused me.

"I don't have to do anything you tell me Logan because you don't even listen to me. How many times do I have to ask for you to let me go?" I asked him through gritted teeth.

"You'll have to ask me many times but I'll never let you go. Anyway I'm asking you if I can bite you" he said casually.

"Your joking right?" I asked him pushing at his chest.

"Its no joking matter" he said seriously his eyes darkening.

"If you knew the answer would be no why ask me?" I asked him confused yet again.

"Because I don't want to lie, cheat or take advantage of you. I want to retain your trust. I want to drink from you so that if you are in danger or hurt I can sense it and come straight to you" Logan said.

"Answers still no" I said. His reasons didn't sway me to change my mind. It only freaked me out.

"Well I told you I'm still going to bite you" he said nonchalantly.

"No you're not, let go" I said my voice getting louder.

"I'll let go once I have enough blood from you. It will only be a couple seconds. It will hurt at first but then you'll feel a numbing sensation. I will be carful you have nothing to worry about" Logan said softly.

"LET ME GO!" I yelled at him, struggling under his grip like mad I was thrashing and pushing at his chest. I knew I was hurting myself more than him. I could hear Logan trying to suppress a growl that was on the verge of escaping. But I couldn't let him bite me! What if he didn't stop? Oh god I feel so sick right now! Logan's chest began to rise and I could feel him pushing me even closer to him, I started to kick him trying to make space between us but it didn't work. The next thing I see is Logan flipping me flat against the mattress with both his hands restraining mine beside my head. His legs locking mine so that I wouldn't and couldn't hit him where it hurts. I tried to struggle even in his body lock, I could feel my panic growing.