Eventually love

chapter 18

Kayla's POV

The second Noah let me out of his hands Logan hugged me with such desperation in his eyes, I felt the same and hugged him back. It hurt but I didn't care. He was tormented with me and without me. I had to open myself to him but I couldn't I didn't know how I'm so use to pushing everything away it just made it so much easier and bearable. Why did my crazy soul begin to fly? Logan was getting under my skin in such a way that he was stealing me from myself he had stolen my heart away subtly and secretly.

"Look what I've done to you" Logan said in painful voice while pushing me away to look over the bruises that were forming on my exposed arms. I should have worn a long sleeved dress it would have made Logan feel better, instead of me parading around with exposed marks. I ignored what he said it wasn't his fault it was Dariuss'.

"You didn't know this would happen. Look at you I leave you for a couple of hours and you're a complete mess" I said trying to lighten his mood.

"Why won't you let me take the blame? You should be angry with me not trying to make me happy" Logan said again in pain. For the first time in my life I wasn't pushing Logan away and he was pushing me away. I didn't know what to do I closed up, what was the point I was making him feel worse not better. I tried to push out of his arms but Logan wouldn't let go. Logan hugged me tighter than before while running his hands through my hair up and down, he missed me that much?

"Did you think I was dead? I was gone for less than a day" I said shocked.

"Don't say that!" Logan trembled with fear while pulling out of the hug. Once again I managed to make him feel worse. I can't even make him happy when he's down? That thought hurt me. I had never seen this side of Logan and it completely freaked me out. I started to push again trying to get out of his arms whatever he was feeling was making me feel awkward. I could feel sweat forming on my forehead Logan was letting all his emotions loose, I felt lost and then love just radiated out of him. I couldn't breathe from the amount he was letting loose. Logan let me go just so that I could face him. I couldn't meet his eyes he loved me so much and I couldn't return half of what he had given me. I felt sickened and saddened by the way I had acted, he deserved someone better. Someone who would have appreciated him from the beginning. I'm an idiot to think he would accept me now, maybe out of guilt for losing me that he came looking for me? I pushed out everything Logan was trying to make me feel, I thought the feeling was guilt it couldn't be love I just felt the emotion incorrectly, no one can produce that much feeling of love, it has to be guilt. I didn't care if I was wrong I didn't deserve Logan he deserved better.

"I know what you're feeling Kayla, Your wrong. Don't push me out just read the emotion not what you want to read, read its true meaning" Logan said softly cupping my face. I put one of my hands over his gentle and sighed.

"How can I? When the only thing I've done to you is make you miserable. You don't deserve me Logan. Find someone else" I said with a jittery voice. I was well aware that Kara, Blake and Noah were in the room. I could feel the sweat growing on my forehead from the heat Logan was making me feel. I wish Logan hadn't decided to have this conversation here. I didn't want people to know what a mess we were when together.

"He can't find someone else" Noah said sounding a bit aggressive?

Logan's face changed from caring to glaring. While my expression was just confused.

"Shut up Noah" Kara said she was also glaring at Noah.

"What do you mean?" I said to Noah, of course Logan could find someone else there are so many people out there in the world one of them would be perfect for Logan unlike me.

"It means" Noah said but Logan interrupted him "Don't you dare" he said.

"I can sense you're about to teleport you better calm down or you know what will happen to you" Noah said threateningly. Logan looked like he was about to punch Noah's guts out.