I'm Cute Too!! (Jun X The8)

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Third Person's POV

Minghao layed down on his bed, sobbing quietly. 'Why did I ever trust Junhui?....' He asked himself. Minghao couldnt help it anymore. He knew it from the time Junhui started keeping distance, making up excuses so that he could get away from Minghao...which made Minghao wonder if Junhui was with someone else. 'You're so stupid!' Minghao cursed at himself 'you knew you didnt want it but then you ended up doing it. How could you be more stupid?!' He asked himself. He was blaming himself, calling himself names or sometimes hitting himself. He couldnt stand it anymore....all the pretending....all the lies....all the misunderstandings...he wondered to himself 'would it best if i just kill myself?'

He slowly sat up on his bed, tears on his cheeks, his eyes red and puffy from all the crying. He looked around the room....'i know i have a blade here somewhere....' He mumbled and scanned the room carefully. Then an idea popped up in his mind 'Papa Coups has one in the bathroom..'he said, rather quite happy. He slowly stood up, but his legs felt weak. He felt as if he would collapse on the ground. He took a small step and his legs instantly felt more weak than last time. 'Ugh..come on...' He hissed and slowly started walking forward. The pain building up more and more. He huffed once he reached his door and opened it silently, looking around if anyone was still awake.

Once he knew it was clear, he took a step outside and slowly and quietly crept towards the bathroom, switching on the light. He entered the bathroom and closed the door behind him. He looked at the razor and took it, trying to get just one blade out. Minghao struggled 'come on...'he hissed and struggled even more. Once the blade was out, he smiled softly and chuckled. He sat down on the edge of the bathtub and sighed. 'Well...here goes nothing...' He whispered to himself and brought he blade at his wrist and softly poked the blade to his skin. But before he dragged it across, he asked himself "Should i do it?"

Minghao didnt know what to do, he started hesistating. 'Whats the point, Minghao? You're just a wuss. You dont even have the guts to drag that blade across your wrists.' He mentally said to himself. 'Its useless if you do this. In the end, the scars on your wrists will just remind you of how depressed you are right now, making you even more depressed.' He said 'but....Junhui doesnt love me anymore.....nobody does...ive been trying to be more mean and cool so that people could like me...'

'Do it, haohao..its for the best..'

'No, Minghao! Snap out of it! This what youre doing, will only cause more trouble.'

'Who's gonna save you out there? No one. Just do it. Nobody is gonna help you. Do it.'

'Think about Papa Coups. Think about the others. Think about your family. Wouldnt all of them be sad and depressed if they found out you did this? You wouldnt want that, would you?'

Questions and commands all filled Minghao's innocent mind. Minghao felt like screaming. He seriously didnt know what to do. Tears ran down his face, like rivers. "I have to do it!" He yelled, his eyes shut close. "Its the only way! Just one cut! " he yelled again.

He then started hearing loud knocks on the door "Minghao? Minghao, are you there? Open the door!" He heard a familiar voice yell at the other side of the door "No! Leave me alone! Go away! You cant stop me!" Minghao yelled, surprisingly he hasnt even made one cut yet. The door bursted open and Coups came inside, he looked at Minghao and snatched the blade from him "What were you thinking?!" S.coups yelled in anger "i-i tried to-" Minghao sobbed but S.coups cut his sentence "tried to? Why would you do this, Minghao?! Show me your wrists!" S.coups commanded.

All S.coups yells and anger scared Minghao, making him show his writs immediately, he wouldnt like it if he made S.coups more angry. S.coups sighed in relief, no cuts to be seen. S.coups covered his eyes with his hands but then quickly looked at Minghao. "What were you getting yourself into, Minghao?" He asked calmly but Minghao was shaking as he cried. S.coups pulled Minghao into a hug and rubbed his back smoothly, comforting Minghao. Minghao shaked and cried continuosly and hugged S.coups tightly. "Lets talk about this in your room.." S.coups suggested and Minghao slowly nodded.

*time skip*

"So..thats why you  were planning on self harm?" S.coups asked and Minghao nodded. "Minghao, you couldve atleast tried to talk to me. Im always here for you Minghao. You can tell me whats bothering you and ill solve the problem, okay?" S.coups said and Minghao nodded once again. "Papa coups.." Minghao called out "hmm?" He said "how did you find out where i was?" He asked "you left your dolr opened and i noticed he ray of light coming from the bathroom and your screams were heard to.." S.coups replied. "But why werent you asleep?" Minghao asked "i wanted to give you your teddy bear back but...i think tonights not a good time to give it." S.coups said.

After a long talk of discussing or explaining, S.coups told Minghao to go to bed by now, they had a lot of practicing tomorrow and from all that thinking and yelling, it probably made Minghao exhausted.

Minghao layed on his bed and was thinking to himself 'papa Coups is such a nice guy..' He said to himself 'i mean his sweet, his funny and caring.' He said and Minghao blushed ......'he's also kind of attractive too'

A/N- well, im gonna stop right here for now..ill try and update faster since school is starting soon...