Daddy's Little Girl (h.s)

22. Don't go

Song for this chapter

Nowimjoey - Wish I Never
Nowimjoey - He said

"Afraid of future that doesn't involve you."

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I run mu fingers through my hair, while Brian's smug face annoys the shit out of me.

I'm so frustrated but I know this is all my fault.

I guess it's always my fault.

I bring a cup of steaming tea to my lips, observing everyone around me. Stacey isn't here like she promised.

"I thought Stacey was here," I ask Brian who seems to be engaged into a conversation I have no clue what it is about. Along Brian and me, there's some people I don't even know sitting in my living room.

It's like I'm sitting with him but I'm not really there. I'm not present at all. Everything moves, times goes by but I feel like I'm frozen.

"Huh? She went to pick up her boyfriend." Brian chuckles and sips tea.

I nod and bite my lips. What am I even doing here?

Suddenly my mind goes back. My deepest fear involved people changing their mind. People tend to scare me, they change their mind so quick. They can go from I love you to I don't even know, just like that. But, not me. I never knew how to stop loving people, once I got feelings for them, it never stopped. I might not love the person they are today, but never ever will I stop loving the memories, the person they used to be. Love can begin mysteriously, love can start deeply, love can start micheviously, love can start suddenly but never on God's earth will love have an ending.
I feel my mind drifting away from reality, suddenly I'm sitting in front of Harry, reminicing what happened with him that time he actually took me to a decent restraunt.

It all started with hin losing a bet on a fact that he couldn't jongleur 4 eggs. Of course I knew he couldn't and I happened to be right. The stake was him taking me to a delicious place or if he won, some dirty stuff I don't even want to remember. 

As we sat down in the restraunt, we both reached out for the same menu and the delicate touch between our fingers made my heart skip a beat.

the food finally arrived, instead of digging in, I started to observe him closely.
The light was shining into his green forest colored eyes, making me weak. I think I heard every word he said but all I could pay attention to was his  mesmerizing. There's something about those eyes that words can't describe. His mouth was telling me funny stories but his eyes were telling me he really wanted to be there with me. He really seemed to enjoy  my company.

After drinks too many we managed to get  the taxi. I tried to observe my drinking, since I wouldn't want anyone at home to worry. Harry instead liked to drink and it really showed that night. He wasn't what you would say wasted but he seemed drunk as we talked in the taxi. We both just leaned on the back seat and suddenly he opened his mouth," Can I  place my head on your lap?" I nodded, surprised he even asked me question like that.
As he placed his head on my tight I wanted to faint. His cheek felt so warm againts my thigh. We both stayed silence, until he opened his mouth again,

" I enjoyed tonight."

I smiled.

"Promise me one thing, Allyson."

"What?" I almost whispered.

"Don't go."

and that's all I could remember from that night, I know it was one step for us to be closer but it wasn't enough. I thought he cared for me after that night, guess I was delusional.

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NOW:

Finally the door bell is heard,making me snap back to reality. I run towards the door to open it. Once I open the door, a sudden regret takes over my body and soul. It's him.

Him with Stacey.

Shawn.

Stacey hugs my frozen body so tight, if I actually was trying to breathe I'd suffocate. Stacey introduces us but I only hear mumbles since I feel like fainting.

Shawn dares to shake my fragile hand with his cold hand.

"Allyson was it? May I call you Ally?" his michevious smile makes me cringe.

I nod, since I'm not capable of getting my thoughts into words.

We all sit down and then they start to talk.

I don't know what it is about. All I know is I wanna be held by Harry so bad right now. I know that he has someone else beside him. He doesn't need me like I need him. He's happy now, with her. Still, something inside of me makes me believe that we were meant for each other. You know that feeling in your gut telling you he's the one? The feeling you try so hard to ignore.

Shawn opens up his mouth, trying to trigger me "So, Ally tell me about yourself. I heard that you're working at a music shop?"

Everyone's eyes are on me, waiting for me to speak up. I finally pick up some courage to utter, " Yeah, I have to make some money since I spend a lot."

"Doesn't Brian spoil you? I mean a girl shouldn't be working, it's the man who brings the bread to the table."

Fucking asshole. A sovinist pig. These nasty thoughts I keep to myself because I don't want to cause a scene and especially not to repeat the scene I had with Shawn.

"I need some air, " I mutter and excuse myself from these fake people, including Stacey. The girl I thought was my friend.

I walk outside and wish I smoked. It would be much cooler to actually stand here instead of doing nothing. I feel a hand grabbing me from behind and my heart skips a beat or two.

"You escaped last time, but you won't be able this time."

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