Daddy's Little Girl (h.s)

21.We're all broken

I used one song for this whole chapter:

Gnash - I Hate U I Love U (feat. Olivia O'Brien)

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I stand there, not knowing how to react to this. This is so overwhelming.

"That's the problem, Harry."

He looks at me with a confuced expression pressed on his face.

"A problem? I just told you that I want you!"

"That's all you do, you only want me for my body, for pleasure."

"What do you think I'd want you for? I told you I don't believe in anything else but pleasure."

"Is that suppose to make me feel better?" I spit, hugging myself from the cold wind that is slowly surrounding us.

"I'm not trying to make you feel better." He yells and it scares the shit out of me, since I'm not used to guys yelling at me. I mean my dad does it sometimes but since I've never had a brother yelling at me, I'm so vulnerable when men yell at me.

Also, it reminds me of my nightmares. 

"Just forget it, okay? But remember this, all of this..." I point at my body, trailing up and down, " you won't ever get it." I say, words filled with poison and it seems to srike him right in the heart that he doesn't have.

He grabs both my hand and stares deep into my eyes. His green eyes doesn't fail to amaze me, no matter how many times I look at them. His grip tightens as I struggle to get away from his touch.

"You're hurting me!"

He forces my lips to crash with his but I don't hesitate at all to pull back.  Thanfully, a ringing voice interrupts us.

"Hello." Harry's raspy voice answer.

"I'm here. Just here. Don't worry." I take a closer look at Harry as he speaks on the phone.

I bet it's Daniella.

"I can't today Daniella,"  he mumbles, saying her name so quietly I'm not even sure I heard him.

"I love you, too. I'll be there tomorrow."  Those three words are the words that I've wanted to hear since forever and now he is telling them to her while he is with me. The only thing I get it "I want you."

This generation mixes up want and love. It makes a big difference whether you love or want someone. You can want someone for their body but loving someone, it takes so much courage. The courage boys these days don't seem to have at all. All they can do is say they want you and then scew you, while they move on to other.

Before he can continue his talk with Daniella, I say," I'm with Brian."

Harry looks at me.

I hear on the other side of the phone, Daniella is constantly yelling his name but Harry doesn't react to it in anyway.

"What?" He clearly asks me as I clear my throat.

"I said, I'm with Brian now."

"Since when?"

"Since I love him."

He blinks couple times and closes his phone without even saying goodbye.

"With Brian?"

"Yes," I utter.

I feel the aura around us getting darker and darker, it isn't coming from the  storm getting near us.

"I understand," I looks at his feet and a smirk is displayed on his lips.

He turns around to walk away from me and I'm just here trying to realize what just happened.

I guess we're both broken. Actually, I once heard that to be human is to be broken and broken is it's own kind of beautiful. We're still beautiful after we're torn apart. I start walking another direction and can't help but think about how much easier it would be if Harry didn't exist.

I hold my breath, and take back my last thought, life wouldn't even be worth living if it wasn't for him. Before him I wasn't even alive, since Harry, for the first time ever I wanted to be awake than sleep, because finally reality seemed so much better than my dreams. It just that reality torns us like nothing ever would, dreams are safe and they tend to keep you sheltered. That's why many prefer dreams over reality. 

No matter how much I get hurt, I'd choose reality over my dreams anyday.

I feel my phone vibrating, "Hi, Stacey!" I feel surprised to hear from my so called bestfriend.It's been forever since I last talked to her.

"What's up? I heard you were with Brian! Girl, I'm so happy for you guys!" she almost screams and leaves me confused.

"um, we're not together."

"That's not what I've heard! Your mother just asked me to visit your house, she told Brian and you were there celebrating getting back together."

"What?" I look up at my phone, and see that my mother has sent me over 10 messages telling me to come back home and to join them.

"Where are you now?" Stacey asks.

"I'm on my way home."

"Yay, see you there then, I've got my own date, too!" she spills and I'm, like always, left with confusion.

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So I know this was a short chapter but theres a lot to come!!

muchos loveeee