Cameron's P.O.V
No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get Daniel, er, Danny out of my mind. He was the first thing I thought of when I woke up in the morning and the last thing I thought of before I went to bed at night.
I was a bit surprised when Dr. Owens called, but agreed to go in and talk. Was I really ready to see Daniel again? Especially after what we'd admitted to each other.
I was doing this for Ben. And for Danny. I knew Ben would want me to help Danny in whatever way I could. And that's what I was trying to do. I sighed and ran my hand through my hair and glanced at my reflection in the mirror. Lately I hated my own reflection, but this was as good as it was going to get.
I stepped out of the bathroom and waved at James and Sam who were cuddling on the couch, "I'll be back later guys" I said as I headed for the door.
"Okay mate" James began, "Cameron?" He called, causing me to turn and look at him. "Yeah?" I said softly "be careful." I nodded and gave them a small smile as I turned the knob and stepped outside.
The ride to the hospital seemed to take less time than usual and before I knew it I was pulling in the parking lot and parking the car.
My heart raced as I slowly approached the building and went inside. I stopped at the receptionist and waited for her to buzz the doctor. Soon, she was telling me to go on in.
I nodded and stood at the door for a moment, trying to work up enough courage to turn the knob. taking in a shaky breath u opened the door and entered the room, closing the door behind me.
"Good afternoon, Cameron" Dr. Owens said as he offered me a smile. "Come on in and have a seat."
I did as I was instructed and sat across from who I assumed was Daniel. He seemed....different today and I couldn't quite put my finger on why.
"Would you like to start, Danny?" He asked.
Wait, did he say Danny? Was Danny back? How? Why? What was going on.
"Yes, it's Danny." The doctor began. "Daniel decided he wanted to be integrated and this is the first step."
Wow. Wasn't expecting that. I honestly though it would be harder to get Daniel to back off. I swallowed back my emotions and looked at the man I used to consider my best friend.
He was devastated. It looked as though he'd been crying for days. I wanted to run to him, to hug him, and assure him everything would be okay. But I couldn't. I was frozen in my tracks and didn't know what to do.
"So, who wants to start." Dr. Owens began, looking from me to Danny.
"I'll start" Danny said softly, wiping at his eyes with the back of his hand.
I took a deep breath and nodded as our attention was turned to the front man.
"I don't even know where to begin exactly." He started, shaking his head. "I've been so fucked up since Ben died. I guess it affected me more than I realized." He stopped, laughing slightly before he continued. "He was my world. I was the one who was supposed to protect him from everything. And I'd done an okay job for many years. But this was something even I couldn't save him from. Loving someone as much as I love Ben and having to sit back and watch them slip away from you is one of the hardest things you'll ever do. And knowing there is absolutely nothing you can do to help them; kills you inside. Every night I'd pray that god would take me instead of Ben. I mean let's face it, Ben was a saint compared to me. I've done so much shit in my life, and hurt so many people why did I deserve to be here and Ben not? But I got to thinking, maybe that's the point. Maybe I was left here without him to suffer. And I have."
He was quiet for a minute and I wasn't sure what was going on until I saw the doctor hand Danny a box of tissues. He took the box, grabbed a tissue and continued.
"I've done so much fucked up shit since Ben's been gone. I wanted him to look down on all of and be proud. Proud that we'd managed to stay strong and stay together even though this shit. But we didn't. And I know that's all my fault. I hurt all three of you and I know that. Even though it wasn't technically me, I know I've probably lost my three best friends forever. And that's my fault. I've done so much fucked up shit in my life that I don't even know where to begin to fix this. All I know is I want to get better. I want to be that guy Ben fell in love with. It's scary thinking of living my life without him, but I know it's something I have to do. It's going to be a struggle, but I'm going to do it. I need to know something, Cameron.." He said as his voice trailed off "will you forgive me?"
By the time he'd finished, I was in tears. This was Danny. The Danny we all knew and loved. He'd already lost Ben once, now he was having to go through all this again. How could I not forgive him?
I took a deep breath and nodded my head as I wiped at my eyes. "Yes, Danny I forgive you."
A/N: sorry for the delay in this chapter. Things have been hectic lately, but I promise to keep up with this story now. And as always, thank you guys for reading!
