Cameron's P.O.V
Wait, what? Did I really hear him correctly? Did he really just say he was in love with me? I took a minute to try and process this confession as I glanced around the room.
James and Sam looked like they'd just saw a ghost and the poor doctor didn't have a clue as to what to say now. And honestly, neither did I.
I was flattered, I'll admit. Because Danny, er, Daniel, hell Danny was an attractive man. I'd always thought that. But this was Ben's husband. No matter what happened I'd probably always look at him that way.
I took a deep breath and looked over, finally meeting Daniels gaze. "You're in love with me?" I asked, almost in disbelief.
He laughed slightly and nodded. "Yes, Cameron. I'm head over heels in love with you." He started. "I feel horrible because I will always consider Ben our husband, but it happened. And there was nothing I could do about it." He shrugged.
There was part of me that wanted so badly to tell him how I felt. How I'd had a crush on him before he got with Ben, but now wasn't the time. Was it?
All I knew for sure was I needed my best friend back. And if we pissed Daniel off, that would never happen. He was in control now, and we'd witnessed just how easy it had been for him to gain said control.
"How does this make you feel, Cameron?" Dr. Owens asked.
I cleared my throat. Guess I should just admit it now.
"I'm honestly flattered. I've had a crush on Danny since we first met. Before he became romantically involved with anyone. But, we got close and he fell in love..." My voice trailed off and my gaze hit the floor.
"And how did you feel when you realized your chance with Danny was over?" Dr. Owens asked.
"I was upset at first and extremely jealous. But anyone who was around Danny and Ben knew those two belonged together. They completed each other. They always had." I said.
I still hadn't made eye contact too much with Daniel, or anyone else for that matter. Here I was pouring my heart out and admitting things I should probably never admit too and it hasn't been that long since we lost Ben.
Dr. Owens cleared his throat and thankfully turned his attention to sam and James who had remained silent since I'd spoke.
"What are your feelings on what Cameron has just admitted to the room?" He asked.
James shook his head and lowered his head. Great. Now he hated me too. How lovely. Sam looked from me to Danny, back to me. "I guess I always knew deep down there was something between you two. I just didn't know how deep those feelings were." He said.
Daniel sighed and got up from his seat, walking toward the window. "See, doc, those two over there think I'm this heartless bastard who has never cared about anyone else. But that's not true. It wasn't just Danny who loved Ben. I did too. And I fell apart when we lost him. Cameron was the only one who truly made me feel like he cared about Danny, let alone me. I know everyone wants Danny back, and I'm sorry to say" he stopped as he turned around to look at all of us "he doesn't want to be out. I would let him out right now, but it would do no good. Danny is falling apart. Ben was his entire world. The whole reason he still woke up every morning and the reason he lived this long. Now that Ben's gone, everyday, every fucking day he thinks of new ways to kill himself. Cause that's what he wants."
He walked back over to the chair and cleared his throat to continue. "If it wasn't for me, Danny wouldn't be here. I know that's hard to think about, but it's true. He hates knowing what I did to James..."
