The L Word

Chapter 7

 A.N.( during this part play hurricanes by the script ) As the door closes I knew that at that moment everything would change for me. was my decision the best one and maybe I might have rushed my decision a little bit.

"Chloe wait "

I call after her but she didn't look back at me.

"Chloe look I know that I have fucked up but I still love you and would be a fool to let you walk out that door without knowing what happened."

"James i'm not sure if I can expect the truth from you anymore I mean why should I believe you, you... you hurt me really bad James and I hate that I still love you but, for some reason i can't stop what I feel for you."

Oh shit is she going to break up with me.

" Can I ask you one thing? Do ... do you love that girl and I need the truth you owe me at least that much."

I barely know her I don't know if I do  love her  What dose love mean anyway...

"I ... I don't know. Please Chloe just ..."

"Just what James what more could you possible say to make me feel any better?"
Thats just it what can I say? What will I say and do I even love this girl this is all happening to fast for me.

" let me think for a second I need to get my mind straight. I know I need to explain it to you  but how can I do that if I have yet to sort out my fealings how do you think I feel about all of this Chloe?"

"really do really you think telling me how you thought your feelings were more important than mine is gonna fix anything ... I, I need some time to think"

" Ok I can give you that "

" No I mean away from you just for a little while maybe I need to sort out some feelings."

At this moment the world has stopped for me, would this be the end of us  before I could get a chance to tell her the whole story.In actuality there is one thing I need to figure out, which is do i love Chloe at all or am I just saying it because i've been going through the motions so much I think I do.If that is the case then I have so much to sort out.For now I still want her so I  need to try.

"Chloe baby I know that I have been rotten to you I promise that I will change just give me a chance, I know I don't deserve that much but please."

"I just don't know what you want from me now I love you but your cheating clearly shows me that you don't feel the same  and it hurts me to know that I was the only one putting their all into this and you didn't have the stones, the balls , the marbles to tell yourself no I had to find out from people I hardly know James, do you have any idea how that makes me feel so until you can get off your ass or high horse or whatever we are done because I can't keep this up i'm just tired of this and from what I have seen from all of this mess I guess you are."

Oh no she is leaving quick think and speak from the heart

" I know that don't deserve a girl as amazing as you and I know that I know I hurt you but I love you and I will always love and if this is what will make you happy then who am I to defy this? I just hope you realy want this."