Evil Ecstasy

chapter 5; Sean

I am very sorry for the late update but my practicals and exams are going on , and I had to study . Nevertheless I'll try to update as soon as I get time , please feel free to leave any comments , I would love to hear from you .
I want to give the credits for this chapter to my best freind mahi who helped me write it and supports me always 😀
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I picked up my frappe from the counter and went out of the cafe . I went towards my red Volvo . The meeting with Mr Lancaster was useless , he had no news . Mr Lancaster was the private detective I had hired for lilly s murderer .
I got in the car and put my frappe aside , started the car and headed towards home .
I remebered how lilly looked in that black coffin , her lips were dry and eyes closed .her smile was missing , her hands which used to fight with me for the remote , then lying by her side , they had cuts on them . The star and moons bracelet missing from her hand . The familiar feeling of guilt , anger and helplessness washed over me .
I clutches the steering wheel harder digging my nails in the soft leather . I stopped the car at the red light . A mother and a young girl crossed the road , they were talking animatedly , the young girl looked like she was explaining something to her mom .
Even Though lilly was younger than me ,she was always more smart and more confident than me . Lizza and I always used to fight and she always broke the ice between us . " Sean you know well always be there for you " she had said convincingly and the thing which hurts the most is that I believed her . I missed her a lot .
I could feel the little lump in my throat, I quickly shoved down the frappe. The cars thinking behind me broke me out of the trance and I started driving again .

******* 2 WEEKS BEFORE******

"Sean" lizza called me from her room . Lizza and lilly always shared a room now it was just lizza's I sometimes thought how lizza must be feeling living alone in the same room .
" Yeah " I said as I reached her room , she pulled me inside . I could see she was crying , her eyes puffy and red , trails of streaming years were still visible .

" I... I wanted to talk to you ..I " she hesitated . I knew she was hiding something but I didn't push it , she would tell me at the right time .
" Lizza what happened " I sighed .

" I ...I don't think lilly was murdered by some robber " she said liking down at the floor . The police had investigated a lot and after 3 months they concluded it with declaring it as a robbery case . I wasn't much convinces either but I wanted to hear lizza 's theory .
" And I why do you think so ?" I asked her .
She liked up " I just know " she replied sternly .

***********PRESENT **********

I reached home and parked my car outside . I saw a black Porsche and the familiar feeling of possessiveness took control of me , after Lilly's death I had become a possessive freak , I wanted lizza and mom secure and this had caused a lot of fights .I ran towards the guest room . A girl of petite frame stood in front of me . She wasn't very short but she was shorter than me , she wasn't very thin either . She was on deep thought , one of her long slender fingers tracing on Lilly's and lizza's picture in the wall .

" And what the hell you think you're doing ?" I heard myself saying .

She jerked and spun around , her brown curly hair spun around as she flipped . The most beautiful pair of green eyes stared back at me . I had never seen eyes like these , innocent yet something mysterious about them intrigued me .

" I .I .I am lyric " she stammered and bit her lip , most likely in nervousness . I knew that I usually made people nervous .

" Lyric who ?" I cocked my head and scowled a little . I knew I was coming out harsher than I wanted but the fear had taken over me and when it does I cannot help myself.

" Dr lyric , I am a psychologist , I am here to meet miss Marin "
I remembered lady night my mom and I had an argument regarding calling a psychologist but she had won .

" Lizza ?" I asked .

" Yea " she answered . She looked flushed and I realised I was probably making her nervous by stating at her soni went and sat on the sofa . I took out my phone and began scrolling through my Instagram .
She came and sat in front of me . I could feel her eyes on me for some time and I suddenly looked up , she blushed and quickly diverted her eyes from me , and started staring at the magazine .

" You can read the magazine you know ?" I said .

" Of course " she blushed a little more .

I never knew brown and green was such a good combination until I saw this girl in front of me , I mentally slapped myself from thinking so , she was here for lizza , but lizza wont tell her a thing , she didn't tell me how could she confide in a stranger .

" It won't work " I said her head snapped up .
"What "
" Lizza wont tell you a thing , she won't discuss about lilly at all " I said as a matter of factly .
." I'll try my best "

" I think psychologists are useless , I mean who would confide in strangers " I said smirking . I wanted to wind her up and see what she says .

" Well, everyone has different opinions "

" Hmm" I muttered disappointingly

Fortunately my mom walked in ,
" I am so sorry to keep you waiting " she said while descending down the stairs .she shook hands with lyric.
" It's okay " lyrics smiled , creating dimples on her cheeks .
" I had an important call to attend to , i see you've met my son , Sean " she looked at me and I smiled
" Yes " she replied

Mom told her to sit and came and sat beside me .

" I have to warn you though Liza I'd a bit difficult.... "
My mom's words reminded me of what lilly had said approximately a month before she went missing . Lizza and I had a fight because of Scott . Scott is lizza's boyfreind . Scott was my freind but then he started dating my sister and things got awkward . Scott was never serious about relationships and when I told this to lizza we ended up in arguing .

" Sean why don't you take her to lizza's room " , mom said , then I realised I had completely zoned out of the conversation.

" Are you sure you wanna do this " I asked her .

" Sean we've had this conversation" she warned me .
I rolled my eyes and stood up .

" Come on " I asked lyric to follow me . I lead her to lizza's room and knocked on her door .

" Yes ?" She answered

" Lizza dr lyric is here "

" Come in "

I spun around and bent down to lyrics face . Her eyes boring into mine .
" Don't say anything .." I lost words as I stared at her . Our noses almost touching .

" Which ?" She asked , she seemed affected too .

I flipped my head to one side       " which hurts her " I mumbled and walked off .

I felt something unfamiliar , longing ?
I knew I intimidated girls buy none of them had an effect like this . I was feeling anxious and scared of what I was thinking . I cannot have these thoughts , I have to protect lizza and mom . I knew I was making them angry but constantly keeping checks on them but I couldn't lose them . All those thoughts were causing a migraine . I knew if I was around anyone at this time id lash out all my frustrations on them
So decided to go to the one place that would calm my nerves and help me distract myself .
To the one person who understood me the most
To the only place I'll find solace

Lilly's grave