Evil Ecstasy

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The rain was tapping on the pavement as I walked away. The weight of the bag of small chocolates slowly pulling my shoulder down . my shoulder blade was still weak because of that night . I stared at the pattern on the pavement while walking . I remembered how octius and I used to avoid the lines while walking when we were younger. One of our hands holding our dads hand and other swaying as we jumped to avoid them. Octius and I used to laugh till our stomachs hurt , dad used to look at us and smile. I could still feel the little hole in dad's glove . we were not that well off at that time but dad did the best he could for us. He was our mother and father both. Mother had left him , dad told us later that she loved money more than him. I still remember how he used to sit by the old wooden arm chair , slowly inhaling the smoke from his cigarette and exhaling it through his nostrils . the lines on his forehead disappearing as he looked at octius and me.

"never trust a woman , boys . they are meant to support us not walk with us . why did god make all men stronger ? because he wanted men to run the world and women were just sent to be a gift for all men.,mere attractions " he scoffed.

Both of us listened to him with full attention and nodd our heads . looking at our eager expressions , dad used to smile exposing a set of yellow crocked teeth , then tossle the half finished cigarette in the ash tray and ask us to come near him.

Holding our waists in both of his hands he used to tell us stories about how brave men fought for the world , against demons and witches and saved the women and children . the smell of smoke and sweat didn't bother us then. It seemed like a fragrance to us. Fragrance of dad . his thick eyebrows went up and down as he animatedly described the fights . his black eyes bobbing between me and octius .

After the stories end we used to go to bed with me lying the middle and octius and dad on my either side. My face as always used to be towards dad. Eyeing the different patterns in the freckles on his cheeks till I slept. Dad was not good looking but for me he was the most beautiful man ever .

Octius used to sometimes ask dad if the injuries the heroes got hort them , or what is so different between women and men , he was stupid he didn't understand what dad said.

One day he got a friend home. She was a girl. He told dad she was his friend, I knew better. Dad smiled and let her in . when she was gone dad called octius in his room and told me to stay outside. They argued for an hour.

Octius came out , with a bleeding lip , crying . I asked him what happened as I cleaned the blood running down , with my only handkerchief.

He smiled and said " nothing much , you know dad. He just explained how I should not get too involved in her."

But I knew much more had happened , the broken chair and shattered glass in dad's room confirmed it. Dad didn't eat that night.

Octius broke his promise of staying away from the girl and suffered gravely, nobody defies dad.

I snapped back to present when I reached home , I opened the door it creaked on its hinges. I made lemon coriander soup and poured it in 2 bowls . I took the bowls in octius room . he was , as usual, sitting on the wooden chair on which dad used to sit, his arms limply resting on the armrests . his staring into the horizons – " searching for the oblivion" as he used to say whenever he zoned out. I fed him the lemon soup slowly , he drank it without protests. As I fed him , I told him about how i saw lizza with an old college mate of mine. I told him how I had a little fun with lizza again after so many months. I told him how I liked Abigail back in college, but she was not as good as lizza. Abigail was prettier but lizza was more submissive. I told him how I intended to get lizza . He made some incoherent noises from his half limp mouth probably protesting against my plans . heat rushed up and I banged the bowl on the table , that shut him up , a tear rolled down his cheek. I smiled and kissed his forehead and took the second bowl in dad's room.

Dad always sat in the shadows. He used to say its more comfortable there . I took my bowl and sat on my bed , I could see a figure standing near the door.

" hi dad" dad never replied for some reason, but his presence was enough for me.

Unlike octius dad always supported me. I was just perfect for him. I was what he wanted. His thoughts and ideas were the rules I had made for my self.

I tried to tell octius about dad but he tried to make me understand that its impossible to see him.

He was not paralyzed until last year so when I showed da to him, he could not see him . dad was right there smiling at me yet octius couldn't see him. The only thing odd was that dad didn't even look at octius once, maybe he was still angry at what octius did.

Next week he took me to a psychologist , I told him the same thing , , he told me I was hallucinating , and gave me some pills but they made me nauseous so I threw them and never went back to him .

Now I could talk to dad everyday . he looked happy and proud of what I had become.

Octius saw me talking to dad again and he got furious one day

" what the hell is wrong with you ? dad is dead. He is dead do you get it ? DEAD" he screamed.

That was the first time I hit him.a punch right on his nose. He staggered back , his eyes widening at the realization of what just happened. His eyes showed fear , resentment and worry. But I couldn't care any less , he disregarded dad . dad mustve been hurt.

I pushed him out of my room. He stumbled and wiped the blood coming coming out from his nose. "listen to me , dad died because of his smoking habits . he is dead. He was found dead on the street . please buff , try to understand . I am your elder brother why would I do something to harm you. I love you bluff but you are hallucinating " I was called bluff at home a nickname dad gave me.

" I wish you were dead " I said and shut the door at his face. He was a coward never understood dad like me. That is why bluff was always and will always be dad's favourite son.

I sipped the lemon soup and told dad everything . he smiled when I told him about what I did today.

I scratched the bruises on my knuckles . punching the walls relieved my stress and the bruises from last week were still healing . I finished the soup and lied down on my bed , I could feel dad;s presence beside me . his hand softly caressing my hair. A feeling of satisfaction spread through me , a feeling of surety

Guarantee ,

Hope

Lizza will soon be mine forever. She would live with me , dad and octius.

Octius might scare her a bit due to hid face disfigurement but nothing she cant handle. We would be a family . the perfect family.

No one would come between us . no one can help lizza ...

And if someone does , he will suffer .... Gravely .

I am sure no one would like to end up as lilly

right abigail ? 

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 hi guys , i am so sorry for making you guys wait this long . i am in 12th and my exams are just not stopping. i cant promise you timely updates but i will try to update asap . i hope you guys understand and continue to support me.this chapter is different from the rest and all the upcoming chapters surely have a lot of exciting new stuff and new important characters , if you liked this chapter please click on the little star below it would make my day . also please keep commenting i love ur comments . thankyou so much for being patient i love yall

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