This is a short chapter marking the start for revealing lizza's secrets, clearly letting lilly go is not the only thing which makes her guilty .
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I woke up sweating and breathing heavily . It was the same nightmare . The same lifeless hazel eyes. I was clutching the bed sheets around me . I closed my eyes and took deep breaths , my heartbeat gradually slowing down . I pushed back the floor strands of my hair , sticking to my forehead. I picked up my phone to check the time .
A picture of lilly and me popped up on the lock screen. Mom took this picture on Christmas last year . Both of us staring at mom with a wide grin on our faces . Lilly was doing a peace sign while I had my arm on her shoulder . We were wearing identical red sweaters.
We looked so similar that no one could've guessed who was who .
The anxiety of the nightmare now replaced by remorse and hollowness . The bile rose in my throat and tears threatened to escape from my eyes . I could physically feel the pain in my heart . I pushed the bed sheets aside and stood up , my knees wobble a little , it was 3 am , I went to the kitchen to get some water . Tears still streaming down my face , my throat felt rough and dry . I poured myself water and drank it .
My eyes fell upon the knife kept on the table , a knife was kept there .I picked it up and ran my fingers across the edge of the knife . The sharp edge made a cut on my index finger. Instead of giving me pain , the cut have e me satisfaction .
It distracted me from Lilly's thoughts ,
I took the knife in my room .I locked my room and sat on the edge of the bed , the little lamp beside my bed faintly Illuminating the whole room . I knew of I cut on my arms the scar would be seen so I pulled my legs up and started running the edge of the knife, on the area below my ankle , first slowly then I gradually increased the pressure . After a few attempts blood started gushing out of the cut I made on my foot . It gave me satisfaction and a light feeling . It was as if I punished myself for letting lilly go , for showing her that tape , for showing her those messages , and maybe for being the reason she was killed . I felt drowsy and intoxicated. I looked at the cut on my foot before falling in sleep , first sleep without nightmares haunting me .
I had finally found the antidote to my nightmares .
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Evil Ecstasy
Mystery / Thriller#44 in mystery / thrillers What do do you do when you sense trouble ? What do you do when something brings back the memories you've been hiding from ....... turn away , not go in that direction but lyric grey does just the opposite , and this step...
