My life's complicated says every teenager at some time in their life, especially if theres nothing wrong with it. Its like all the girls saying that they are on their periods whenever its time to swim in gym class. It amazes me that they are on their period every Tuesday and Thursday every week, yet it mysteriously disappears when the beach is involved. They have this switch in them that magically turns it on when they need it and off when it starts to become a pain in the ass. But that's just it! When your actually on it, the all start gossiping and giving you the look like you just stole the tiara that was on the skeleton in their cupboard!
Then there is the love life. Fun or fucked? Good question but how about both. With my life I wish I could just date all them at once! With 3 guys keeping me up at night, I don't know what to do... each guy has his own story on its own. Lets just call them guy 1. Guy 2. And guy 3.
Guy 1. – one of my closest friends brother. As well as one of my best guy friends. Bad right? Well I have had him in my heart and head for about 15 months now and it sucks. Regardless of all my attemps of trying to get him out, he always finds a way back in. he hurts me and I cry over him but he doesn't know this. It always seems that he doesn't care about me really that im only here when he needs something but yet just those few times of being needed by him make up for everything. Hes a rugby player and I went to watch one of his games, him not expecting to see me there. But when he did see me... he smiled. That made my weekend! After the game I saw him and gave him a hug etc... but when I went to his funds raiser he didn't bother to try talk to me much or say hello, he was more interested in my friend of course. And still is so now hes just a friend. And will remain that way.
Guy 2. – not as long but still 6 months... just friends but a friend that as we get closer it gets harder to look him in the eyes because when I do... ahh I just melt and I cant take that! He was also at the rugby game but I didn't really see him much. I overheard his real mom talking and another guy asking her who he was. His mom is so proud of him and its amazing to see! But I do speak to him more often and I have actually planned a wedding with him surprisingly! When i was at the funds raiser I walked to the door with my friend so he could say hello to her boyfriend and guy 2. was working at the back of the restaurant and he made the effort to come over and he gave me one of the best hugs I had had in a while! He made the effort to talk to me to after the event. I worry about him tho because he always gets injured in his rugby games and its hard. I don't like seeing him hurt. Actually for his birthday I got him a alcohol canister with thirsty aid on it and I told him that its to help with the pain! His mom knows about me and said that im a freakin creative and cool chick. Should I be happy that she does? That's a good sign right? Questions...
Guy 3. – about 2 months or so. He actually likes me back which is nice! He goes to the same school with one of my brother. I don't know if they close or not but I know that they do talk a bit so its kinda a good thing I hope. Its hard to see him because getting out the house to see him becomes a challenge. When I do see him, im myself with him and he doesn't hide anything from me. Hes kinda like my best friend that I can make out with. Weird I know but it works! But if we ever did date I don't know really how long it would last because hes more of a shy boyfriend, doesn't do dates, PDA or anything like that. Which sucks because that's what im all about. But when im in his arms nothing like that matters. He gives these hugs that are like indescribable. They are movie hugs. Long, cute, warm and safe! In everyway hes like perfect and romantic but I still get shy around him. Until he asked me if we could restart. Restart? Whats that suppose to mean?
