Because Of You, I Might Think Twice

Part Seven

The drive home was too silent for Tyler.  He knew he hurt Blurry but he liked Josh too much to let him slip though his fingers.  His train of thought was interrupted by the sight of his home.  Tyler and Blurry got out of the car and went inside.  Tyler went to his room and Blurry slowly followed him in. 

"Do you need something, Blur?"

Blurry shrugged and sat on the edge of Tyler's bed.  Tyler sat beside him and crossed his legs.

Blurry sighed.  "You're gonna leave me, aren't you?"

Tyler looked at Blurry sadly.  "No, Blurry.  We're in this together.  You know this.  Forever, remember?"

Blurry shrugged again and kept his eyes down. 

Tyler sighed and wrapped his arms around Blurry.  Blurry stiffened at contact that he didn't initiate but hugged Tyler back after a pause.  They sat there, in each other's arms, for awhile while Tyler sang to Blurry quietly.  Blurry got out of his weird mood but stayed with Tyler.  Tyler pulled away when his phone went off around noon.  It was Josh.

Josh:  Wanna hang out tomorrow around five?

Tyler responded quickly.

Tyler: Yeah!  I can pick you up and I have some news.

Josh sent a thumbs up and Tyler put his phone away.  Blurry had huddled up in one of his black hoodies and was pressed against Tyler's pillows in a ball.  Tyler laid beside Blurry without a word.  They were silent for about an hour before Tyler got up and went to the kitchen.  Blurry followed.

Tyler made himself a sandwich and sat at the table.  Blurry sat across from Tyler and watched him a little too fondly.  Tyler pretended to not notice and let Blurry just do whatever.

Blurry spoke up.  "Ty?"

"Hm?"

"What's it like to be kissed?"

Tyler stopped eating and looked at Blurry.  "You've kissed me plenty of times.  You should know."

Blurry shook his head.  "Not like to that.  To really be kissed.  By someone you really like and want to be with.  What's it like to be kissed by Josh?"

Tyler looked down at the table.  "When I kiss Josh... It's like there's a fire in my chest.  It's warm and tingly.  The longer we're touching and the closer we get, the more the fire is fanned.  It spreads through my body to my fingertips and out through my toes.  My whole body is warm and all I know is happiness, the only thing I can feel is Josh's presence, the only thing I can taste is Josh.  It's all him.  My senses are heightened just to feel him in unbelievable detail...  It's bliss." 

Blurry watched Tyler as he explained all this, a mixture of confusion and sadness written over his face.  Tyler looked at Blurry when he was done and gave him a smile.

"It sounds beautiful, Ty."

"It is."

"Ty?'

"Yeah?"

"I wanna be treated like Josh."

Tyler stared at Blurry.  "You what?"

Blurry looked down and said nothing.

Tyler spoke up.  "Blurry, you what?"

"I wanna be treated like Josh.  I wanna know what that feels like before you erase me from your mind.  I deserve it.  Look what we've been through together. Just for a little while.  Please, Tyler."  Blurry raised his head as he spoke until he was looking Tyler straight in the eyes.

Tyler thought for a moment.  He wanted Blurry to be happy.  That was the only way he could be happy.  Josh would never know.  It's not like Blurry was real, anyway.

Tyler sighed and nodded.  "Okay.  Okay, I'll do that for you."

Blurry nodded.  "Thank you, Ty.  Can we start now?"

Tyler nodded.  They moved to the sofa and watched a movie together.  They cuddled but Tyler was stiff.  He just kept picturing Josh in his head to make everything better.  It helped a little.  

The day turned to night and Tyler's drowsiness rolled around.  He informed Blurry that he was going to bed and Blurry stayed on the sofa.  Tyler went back to his room and went to bed.  He was asleep within about ten minutes.  

Blurry stayed in the living room until three in the morning.  He got bored and wandered back to Tyler's room.  He watched the boy sleep for awhile then joined him.  He gently wrapped his arms around Tyler's hips and felt Tyler lean back into him. 

Tyler's mind told him that the presence must be Josh so he relaxed back and put a hand over "Josh's" .  Blurry turned his hand over and laced his fingers with Tyler's.  He watched as a black shadow started at Tyler's fingertips and slowly creeped its way up his arm.  The shadow resembled Blurry's and it happened whenever they touched hands or Blurry touched Tyler's neck.

Tyler woke up at around ten thirty and felt Blurry behind him and his hand in Blurry's.  Tyler tried not to tense or jump in surprise. 

"Good morning."  Blurry's deep voice boomed from behind Tyler.  His voice was too deep and loud for the morning.

Tyler rolled onto his back and looked at Blurry, mumbling sleepily, "Morning..."

Blurry pressed a gentle to kiss to Tyler's forehead then got up.  "Hungry?'

Tyler felt his tummy growl and he nodded.

Blurry nodded back then left to the kitchen.  Tyler got up and changed into something comfortable then went out to the kitchen.  Blurry made him a bagel for breakfast and Tyler ate in silence.

They lounged around together until about 4:30, when Tyler brought up a sensitive topic to Blurry.

"I have to pick up Josh, soon."

Blurry's expression became a grim one.  "Okay... Sounds good."

Tyler looked down.  "I'm sorry..."

"It's fine."  Blurry shrugged.  "Don't worry about it.'

Tyler held his hand out for Blurry and he  just looked at it.

"What..?"

Tyler rolled his eyes.  "Hold my hand, idiot."

Blurry bit his lip and slipped his hand into Tyler's.  Tyler rubbed Blurry's knuckles gently.  Blurry sighed softly and looked at their hands as Tyler's phone buzzed.  Tyler jumped a bit then pulled away and grabbed his phone.  It was a text from Josh.

Josh: I'm ready! Come whenever :D

Tyler smiled slightly at his phone then stood.  "I'm gonna go get Josh."

Blurry nodded slightly.

"You coming?'

Blurry shook his head.  "I'll be in the spare room." 

Tyler nodded and pulled on his shoes before disappearing out the door, leaving a lonely and jealous Blurry on the sofa in an empty house.