Because Of You, I Might Think Twice

Part Nine

They drove back to Tyler's home, Blurry silent in the backseat while Tyler and Josh spoke about random things.  As soon as they got back, Blurry got out and went inside.  Tyler watched him with a frown before turning and leaning against the wall beside the garage, watching Josh put his things in the garage. 

  Tyler smiled widely at Josh when he was done.  "I should have you lift and carry my things around more often."

  Josh shut the garage and smiled before suddenly scooping Tyler up into a bridal position.  "Will this work?"

  Tyler laughed and held onto Josh tightly.  "Mhm.  Definitely."

Josh laughed and kissed Tyler's lips quickly before making his way into the house.  Tyler looked around and swung his feet while playing with Josh's purple hair.

  "I'm thinking about dying my hair, Ty." Josh mumbled as they walked to Tyler's room.

  "What color?"

  "Red, maybe."

 "That'll look good."

 Josh smiled and sat Tyler down on his bed.  "Thanks..."

Tyler pulled Josh down onto the bed by his hands, causing a giggle to escape Josh's lips as he fell beside him.  Tyler laughed and climbed onto Josh, looking down at him lovingly.  Josh wrapped his arms around Tyler's neck.

"During Holding Onto You... you said you loved me..."

Tyler instantly looked away and blushed brightly.  "I did..."

"Do you?"

Tyler bit his lip.  "Maybe..."

"Wow..."

Tyler hid his face in Josh's chest, Josh hugging Tyler before rolling them over so that he was on top. 

"I love you too."

"Really?"

"I do."

Josh cupped Tyler's jaw and leaned down, kissing him softly.  Tyler kissed back, holding Josh's sides.  They kept everything slow and soft, not making any sudden or unwanted moves.  Josh pulled away after a bit and looked down at Tyler.

 "You're so beautiful.  Even more so when you sing."

Tyler blushed brightly and turned his head to bite his own shoulder and keep from smiling.  Josh kissed Tyler's cheek. 

"I love you, Tyler."

"I love you too, Josh."

 Josh laid down and wrapped his arms around Tyler's waist. "I'm so glad I came upon your house in the rain."

Tyler smiled and ran a hand up Josh's chest to his neck.  "I'm glad you did too.  I need you."

 "I'll always be here for you."

 That made Tyler smile and he hugged onto Josh tightly.

  "Goodnight, Ty... you had a long day.  Get some sleep, baby."

 Tyler nodded and closed his eyes, falling asleep in minutes.  Josh kissed Tyler's forehead before falling asleep as well.  Tyler slept late into the next day and Josh was the first to get up.  He kissed Tyler's cheek before getting up to make Tyler a surprise breakfast.  Tyler ended up rolling into Josh's spot in the bed and pressing his face to Josh's pillow.

 Josh knocked gently on the door.  "Ty?"

 Tyler stayed asleep.

 Josh chuckled and went over, sitting on the bed.  "It's time to wake up, love."

 Tyler moved to lay in Josh's lap with a sigh.

 "Are you up?"  Josh started to pepper Tyler's face with kisses.

 Tyler giggled and shook his head.  "No.  I'm sleeping."

 Josh laughed.  "I made you breakfast but you can only have it if you get up."

 "I'll only eat if you carry me there."

 Josh smiled and scooped up Tyler like he had the previous day.  He carried him to the kitchen.  Tyler held on tightly until Josh sat him down in a chair and slid a plate of food to him.

 "Looks good."  Tyler took a quick look around for Blurry but he was nowhere to be seen.  He sighed at that then started to eat.  Josh got himself a plate of food and sat with Tyler.  Tyler ate quietly and rested his hand on the table.  Josh put his hand on top of Tyler's.  Tyler took the dishes when they had both finished and washed them.  When the dishes were clean, Josh beckoned Tyler over.

 Tyler smiled and walked over.  "Yes?"

 "Hi."

 Tyler sat in Josh's lap.  "Hello."

 "You're looking rather nice this morning."

Tyler blushed and rolled his eyes.  Josh just stared up at Tyler fondly as Tyler pressed their foreheads together.

 Josh pecked Tyler's lips.  "Any plans today?"

 Tyler shook his head.  "Just hanging out with you."

 Josh nodded and put his hands at Tyler's hips, Tyler cupping Josh's jaw and looking him in the eyes.

 "What should we do?"

 Tyler shrugged and looked down and Josh bit his lip.  Tyler paused then pressed his lips to Josh's.  Josh ran his hands down and over Tyler's chest, making Tyler shiver as he slipped his hands into Josh's hair.  Josh slid a hand under Tyler's shirt and rested it on his chest.  Tyler tensed just slightly.  Every time someone touched him like this, it was Blurry and it never ended well.

 Josh pulled his hand out and pulled away from the kiss, not wanting to make Tyler uncomfortable.  "Sorry..."

 Tyler shook his head, looking hurt.  "No no... it's just... I..." He frowned and looked down.  He knew he'd do something wrong.  Useless, right?  Like Blurry says.  Useless.  Disgusting.

 "I'm sorry, it's my fault... we don't have to do anything, if you want."

 Tyler shook his head again.  "I want to... it's just hard thinking that being touched like this is okay when the only time I'm ever touched is because I'm bad."

 "I would never hurt you, Tyler... I hope you know that."

 Tyler nodded and sighed.  "You probably don't want to anymore.  That's fine."  Tyler got off Josh and went to his room but left the door open.

 Josh sighed softly and looked in the direction Tyler left to.  He decided to give him some space. 

 Bad idea.

 Blurry waltzed over to Tyler's room, leaning on the doorframe with a smug look.

 Tyler saw Blurry in the corner of his eye.  "Go away.  This is all your fault."

 Blurry hummed, closing the door behind him.  "I told you he wouldn't like you."

 Tyler curled into a small ball against his pillows and said nothing.

 "Bet he doesn't even want to touch you."  Blurry said, sitting down in front of the door after locking it.

 Tyler frowned and teared up a little, starting to believe Blurry.  Josh furrowed his eyebrows when the doors closed and hurried over.