A month. That's how long I've known you. I don't want to admit it but you have changed me. I didn't understand you. You were insanely cute and you seemed like you should be with a skinny cute cheerleader but no, you didn't want that. You told me that you liked chubby girls and really that made me laugh. Why would you, a fucking perfect guy who probably could get anyone, want a chubby chick? Especially one like me. You could do better.
The day after we met, I sent you a picture of me. You described me like I was a work of art. You loved the boring brown of my eyes, even though you have an enticing clear ocean blue. You liked my messy hair, that I can hardly brush through. Really, I thought you were insane, what did you see in me? I sent more pictures, just because I felt the need to make you happy. You talked about my body like I was the best thing that ever happened to you, like you've known me for a long time and you loved me. You liked the chub on my stomach and that I was a little fat. You said you want to hug and kiss me, help me accept my body. You said my thick thighs were sexy. You said you loved it, that my whole body perfect.
You made me feel so good. You said that you didn't care what I thought about my body because I was wrong. You told me the truth and said that seeing my body give you vivid ideas of holding me and cuddling me and wanting me in all the wrong ways. You used all these big words to describe me. For once I felt really happy to meet somebody that didn't think I was just fat and useless. You showed me off and called me yours and even got jealous over me even though we weren't dating. You said that if we were dating you would have your hand on my ass all the time so no one else could stare at it. You treated me like a princess. Like I deserved more when really I didn't feel like that. I like seeing your face, hearing you talk, watching you smile. You make me happy beyond belief.
I hate to say this but I'm scared I'll fuck this up and I'll lose you.
And I'll never actually tell but I think...I'm kinda falling for you.
