Realities

2c

After that day everything just seems to melt together. Grey wanted me to take it slow so I did. First I got his lawn back in order. That was the easiest part. At first Grey didn't even want me to mow so he did that while I still rested.

A few days later he had me design the flower beds to how I would like them to look, the design not the actual flowers. Once I did that he hired a couple of guys to do the digging and pulling up of the lawn that needed to go. They also prepared the soil so that I would have an easy time with planting. I felt bad about the flowers I wanted to put in, most were not expensive but some were and even the less expensive ones like petunias, well the amount of plants needed make it expensive. So I didn't even bring up the idea of putting in a sprinkler system. This is after all part of my job.

"The yard looks a thousand times better than it did a week ago Miracle." Grey says as we sit on the patio enjoying the summer sun before it sets.

I look down in embarrassment. "I haven't done much. You are the one to spend all the money on buying the plants and what not."

He laughs. His laugh is low and makes me feel things I shouldn't for him. I wish I could make him laugh all the time.

I'm so lost in my thoughts that I miss what he says the first time and have to ask him to repeat what he just said. "I may have bought the items but it's your designs and time that make it so beautiful, just like you."

My mind completely stops with his words. I don't know what to say or think now. He doesn't seem to have any problems, but then he wasn't mentally abused for years either. "Thank you." I finally manage to get out. By now the sun has set and the twilight is passing to full night. For that I'm thankful. I'm blushing brighter than a tomato now and don't want Grey to see.

The silence descends and I find it awkward and uncomfortable so I say the first thing on my mind and could hit myself afterwards. "You should bring your girlfriend over sometime. I could cook a romantic dinner for the two of you while you enjoy your new yard."

I feel Grey stiffen beside me. I think he's angry now but I'm not sure why. "Linda and I broke up about three weeks ago, I don't currently have a girlfriend."

Now I feel like a real ass. "I'm sorry." I say and stand up to leave.

He puts a hand on my arm, "No, I'm the one that's sorry. There's no way that you could know. I don't share my private life with many people. Miracle..." His voice trails off but that's okay because now I'm more embarrassed than ever. He takes his hand off my arm and I leave the patio as quickly as I can.

My room like always has become my sanctuary. Since I still don't dare check to see if this is my reality I've abandoned all my things and have to start over.

Since I no longer have books to dig into I've started writing. Simple things really but it's something I've found that I really like. Although I'm not likely to ever share with anyone. Damn I hope I don't leave this reality.