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After that night I didn't feel as comfortable around Grey. Probably just as well since he had to work a lot. At least, I think he did, it's not like he told me what he was doing. All I knew was when he wouldn't be home for dinner he would tell me so I wouldn't make too much.

That got boring pretty fast. I soon memorized the T.V. schedules but was unimpressed overall with the T.V. shows. I quickly ran through his small collection of D.V.D.'s. I turned more and more to writing to alleviate my boredom.

"Miracle," I hear a voice say. It pulls me up from the nap I had been taking.

"Two weeks without talking to me and you decide to wake me up from a nap?" I was a little snappy. I really needed that nap, I haven't been sleeping well, too many nightmares plaguing me at night.

I refused to look at Grey, but I could hear his amusement in his voice, "Sorry, but I wanted to see if you would like to go out tonight?"

I look at him more than a little sleep befuddled. "Go out?"

Grey looks at me with his amusement well hidden. "Yes, I thought I'd take you out to dinner. You've done a lot of work and the yard looks fantastic, both front and back. I thought it might be nice for you to have a treat. How about it?"

I thought about it. Dinner with Grey, I have to admit it certainly beats cooking anything for dinner. The casserole I'd prepared can be for dinner tomorrow. And if I was truly honest with myself, I missed him. I smile up at him and say, "That sounds nice. Where would you like to go?"

"Well I don't know, we could go somewhere nice or just wherever. Just as long as they have steak, I have a definite craving for steak." I smile a bit at that. He does the grocery shopping if he'd wanted steak again he could have bought it anytime and I would have fixed it for him.

I wish I could take the next words back. "It sounds like fun. It won't take me long to get ready."

Dinner was fun. I don't remember having a better time ever. I just wanted that night to last forever. That night before we got in the car to return home, he kissed me. I will never forget that kiss. Damn, why couldn't he have been the one I married? It was then I accepted my feelings for him, I loved him.

"Grey," I wanted to tell him how I felt, but I chickened out.

"Did you enjoy dinner?" He asked me. At this point I still couldn't talk and could only answer by nodding my head. "I'm glad. I have a confession to make." The words froze me inside, I don't know why but they did.

"What's your confession?" my voice is low, and a little hoarse. I really wanted to kiss him again but I was too scared to do so.

"I love you. And I have loved you even before I really got to know you." His words hit me like a load of bricks. Then the meaning of the words hit, not the I love you part but the when part.

"You had a girlfriend then, right?" I was confused, he had only mentioned her that one time and that was before things had changed between us.

"Yes. But after I met you, I had to break up with her because I felt so much more strongly about you than I ever did for her." His words, I heard them and I understood what they meant but at the same time I couldn't comprehend them.

"How could you feel strongly for some one that you didn't know?" I was reeling and desperately trying to find my feet again. But what I really wanted to say was I love you back and I couldn't.

"I don't know." He caressed my face as he gently moved some hair behind my ear. "All I know is when I found you and you were so hurt, damn. It was like a knife was in my heart Miracle. I saw you for the first time yet at the same time it was like I had known you for forever. Corny, cheesy, cliched, all those things I know. I've felt drawn to you far more than anyone I've ever known. And seeing you laying there all white, for the first time out on a call, I was scared. Stupid, I know, but that's the truth." 

And I could tell he meant every word. He'd been scared for my life when he found me. Truly I wish I had known him before all the other crap had happened in my life.

I still couldn't speak, so I did the only thing I could think of to show him how I felt. I kissed him.

That went on for some time until reality brought us back to the parking lot in the form of some teenagers snickering at us. Once more I felt myself turning bright red, fortunately the dark hid that from others and Grey hugging me made it so he couldn't see it either.

After an eternity passed Grey gently escorted me to my side of the car and opened the door for me. I slid in and buckled up. Grey got in and buckled up but neither of us spoke. I'm not sure why Grey didn't but, for me I just didn't know how to express myself.

We waited at the stop light for it to turn green and silence  filled the car. But it was a comfortable silence. Suddenly I felt like a weight had been lifted off of me and I don't know why and I hadn't realized that I had even had this weight. All I know was I wanted this feeling to never end.

The light changed and Grey started forward. I heard the sound of metal screaming and glass shattering. Grey's frantic yelling, then nothing.