Dirty Little Secrets

Chapter 8

Nathan's P.O.V

"That's not going to happen, Ariana."

I startled her with my unique ability to read her mind. She looked up at me, tears rolling down her soft pale face.

"Why is it that I keep running into you?"

She whispered. Her voice was soft and vulnerable, but she almost sounded mad. As if she didn't like seeing me. Even though I certainly enjoyed seeing her.

I stared into her eyes with confusion. I turned her, therefore I was her protector. It's my job to make sure she doesn't get hurt, or reveal our kind to the human world.

"What do you mean? I'm your protector."

Now she looked confused. I guess she didn't know this.

"Protector?"

She tilted her head to the side like a little kid. She was adorable really, her soft but black eyes stared into me with utter confusion. I really loved it when she is confused.

"I changed you, it's my job to keep you alive."

"Then why are you trying to kill my boyfriend."

Her words caught me off guard. I step back for a moment and think about what I should say. I love her. Ever since I lied my eyes on her for the first time, I felt this tingle. This feeling of pure love.

"Because I want you to be my girlfriend. Not that Jake kid's girlfriend."

I slowly reply, slightly embarrassed. She giggles at my comment and manages to correct me through her laughs.

My expression turns serious,

"I'm sorry. I truly am. I don't really know how to control my feelings sometimes."

I'm desperately trying to explain myself now. I don't want her to hate me for what I did. I feel bad enough already.

I stare into her eyes for what feels like hours. It feel like it was just Ariana and I in the whole world as I slowly lean into her. Our eyes never separating, I press my lips into her soft lips.

She gasps slightly under my kiss but she doesn't lean away. She does the opposite of what I expect. But it doesn't last for long.

"I'm sorry..."

I stutter hoping that she doesn't hate me more for what I did.

"No. No it's fine."

She whispered not making eye contact with me. I took a deep, unneeded, breathe and turned my face toward the trees.

"Ariana, I don't want you with him anymore. That's why I did what I did. I'm not a mean man or a heartless one at that, but I care more about you than I do any other person. Any other person I've ever met or had to protect."

I had a newfound confidence in my voice as I told her my feelings. I felt so exposed and vulnerable. But I needed her to trust me and this might be the only way.

"I've seen how he treats you. I want you to have someone who actually loves you. Like me..."

My voice trailed off at the end. Ariana looked up at me with tear stained cheeks and black eyes. Behind the sorrow and pain was worry and comfort. She never failed to amaze me.

"But you can't just try to kill people when you want to date their girlfriends Nathan! I love him and as much as you hate that I do!"

She shouts. Her newborn ability causing her voice to tremble the trees and shake the whole forest. She stood up quickly and spun around the walk away from me.

"Help me then Ari. Help me to be better. I don't want to be this way. I want to be human. I want to have control over my emotions. I want to get old with someone I love and get married and have kids but I can't. I can't Ariana because I'm a monster! No one ever loves the monster!"

My voice shakes and tear start rolling down my face.

"Jai, he has everything. The life, the fame, the fortune, the talent. But most importantly... He has you."

I whisper sinking back down the trunk of the large tree.

"I can't just leave my boyfriend, who is currently on his death bed, because I love you too."

Her words shocked me.

"You love me?"

I gasped. A small smile crept across her face as she looked into my eyes.

"A little bit... But-"

She was cut off by her phone ringing.

"Hello? Yes, this is she. Are you serious? Oh my- Ill be right there. Thank you."

She hung up the phone and quickly stood up running toward the end of the forest.

"What happened?"

I asked as I tried to catch up with her.

"Jai... He's not breathing."

She spoke not looking in my direction. I never meant for this to happen. I hope that Jai doesn't die. Ariana would hate me.

----------------------

OMG I'm so so so so so sorry for the long wait. I've been so stressed with school lately and I'm so sorry. It's been forever since I updated. I'm not gonna set a limit for this chapter because I don't wanna do that anymore. I'm going to try really hard to update again by Sunday. Please just stay with me.

Xoxo, Kendall♡