Phan Texts And Oneshots

A Wedding? part 1

Hey guys! This story will be in 2 parts because it is so long. And TRIGGER WARNING. if you are sensitive to self harm or suicide DO NOT READ THIS STORY.
Summary: Dan gets engaged to Cat and Phil does not take it well. (Another prompt from nofaithleft)
Catagory: character death, suicide, self harm, sad, angsty.
Word count: 1189
Phils p.o.v:
Im going to lose him. My best friend. Hes going to leave me. Hes getting engaged. He told me this morning before he headed out for a date with Cat.

~flashback~
"Phil? How do i look?" Dan came into the lounge. 'Perfect. Gorgeous. Hot' immeadiatly came to mind. But of course, i couldnt say that.

"You look fine, why are you so dressed up?" i asked confused. He was wearing the outfit he wore to host the brits. He never dressed up this much on a normal date with Cat.

"Im.. Im going to propose to Cat tonight" Dan smiled lovingly. God i wish that smile was for me. Dan wasnt focused at all. He was looking towards the wall adoringly obviously thinking about Cat.

"Oh.. Well good luck" i mumbled trying not to show I was upset so i got up and speed walked to my room. I was just his best friend.

~flashback over~

So here I am. Sitting on my bed, curled up in a ball crying my eyes out. Awaiting for Dan to come home and tell me the news. Bur i already knew what he was going to tell me. "She said yes". And Dan was going to leave me. He will leave the flat and hes going to forget about me.

TRIGGER WARNING.
I can't stand it. Dan... My best friend.. And crush. Well more like love of my life. I didn't want him to leave. What would i do without him?

I got up off my bed and made my way to the bathroom pulling out my blade i hide in there. Ive been using it alot recently. Especially since Dans going out everyday for Cat. Its like im nothing to him.

I drag the metal across my wrist feeling nothing, im so used to it. I let myself have 8 slashes on each wrist. That seems good enough. I sit on the floor and let myself pass out. The last thing i think is 'i love you Dan..'

-TRIGGER OVER. And time skip-

I wake up a few hours later hearing the door slam shut. I quickly cleaned up the mess i had made and pulled on a hoodie. Even if it was mid-july. I had to hide my arms.

I quickly put the tool back in its hiding spot. I dont regret what i did. I never do.

"Phil? Where are you?" i hear Dan call from the lounge. He was happier than usual and love was flowing from his lips. Great. She said yes. Am i suprised? No.

"Coming!" i called back pulling the hoodie sleeves down. I walk down the hallway and into the lounge to see and love struck Dan. My heart hurts.

"She said yes! Phil im getting married!" Dans said excitedly and looked at me expectedly. Oh right. Im supposed to be happy.

"Congrats mate." i fake smiled. It seems to work though as Dan pulls me into a hug. Hes bouncing up and down happily and starts going on and on about how nervous he was and how it was for nothing because her reaction was great. But i couldnt hear anything. Maybe i lost to much blood.

"Phil? Are you even listening?" i hear Dan say annoyed. And thats when i collapse.

~another time skip~

When i wake up again Im in my own bed. "Oh my god your awake" i hear a Dans relieved say. My vision focuses and i see him sitting right next to me and he was leaning over, to make sure i was alright.

"What happened? One minute im talking ro you and the next your limp in my arms!" Dan blurts out pulling me into a hug. Maybe he did care for me.

"Oh um.. I wasnt feeling well earlier. It must have got to me" i lied. For his sake. I couldnt imagine what Dan would think if he found out i was hurting myself. Especially when Dans name was carved multiple times in my arms. And thighs.

"Oh well im glad your awake" Dan smiled and pulled back from our hug. It felt cold without his arms around me.

"So.. I want to ask you something" Dan said biting his lip all of a sudden nervous.

"Of course. You know you can tell me anything" i smiled looking into his eyes to reassure him. He gave me a little smile back and took a deep breath.

"Um so.. Cat and I were talking and.. I wanted to know if you wanted to be my best man?" he asked playing with his fingers.

In that moment anything that was left of my heart shattered just than. I was holding back sobs. He wanted me to watch him leave.

"Oh um yeah of course" i managed to choke out relizing he was waiting for an answer. He gave me a tight squeeze and rushed into his own room to call Cat. God. This is going to be torture.

~two months later~

Todays the wedding. Dans already at the church taking care of final buisness. All social media is blowing up sending them congrats already.

I..i cant do it. I-i cant. Its already eating me up inside and i cant bear to watch him get married and leave me. I cant stay here and help him move out the flat and into America.

TRIGGER WARNING

I shakily pull out my phone to send Dan a goodbye text. But i dont want to ruin his big day. Maybe he'll find out after. I grab a blade and start slashing into my thighs and wrists. I lose count after 50. I down 3 bottles of pills just in case. I hear the door slam and hear people calling my name. Pj and Chris i recongize. Probably wondering why im not at the church. But its too late. All i see is black.

(Finally!) Dans p.ov:
The ceremonys supposed to start is ten minutes and Phil still hasnt shown. Where the hell is he? Im pacing back and forth nervously hoping Pj or Chris will text me soon. Hopefully the taxis just stuck in traffic. Yeah. Thats it.

I had sent Pj and Chris to the apartmenrlt just incase Phil had lost track of time. But they havent texted me like they said they would.

Im mid-pace when Pj burts in without Chris. His eyes are red and puffy and tears are streaming down his face. I quickly rush to his side giving him a tight hug.

"Pj! Whats wrong?" i ask worridly wondering what had got him so upset

"P-phil-" he tried but a sob overtook him and he cried harder. My eyes widen at the sound of my best friends name. What could have Phil down to make Pj this upset.

"Peej? What about Phil?" i ask quickly and frantically trying to find out what was wrong with my best friend.

"D-dan.. Phil killed himself" Pj whispered holding back more tears sniffling and looking at the floor. Now it was my turn to cry.

And thats the end of part one! Hope you guys liked it! Part two will either be up later today or tomorrow!