Phan Texts And Oneshots

A Wedding? part 2

Hey guys! As promised here is part 2! I hope it meets your standards 😂
Summary: Dan finds out Phil is gone and visits him on life support.
Catagory: Sad-Happy
Word count: 983
Dans p.o.v:
I fell to my knees, tears falling down my face. Phil is gone. Phil actually killed himself. Why? Why did he do it! He was one of the most energetic and happy people i know! Well.. Knew. I sobbed hitting the floor with my fists.

"Where is he? Where is Phil?" i managed to choke out to Pj. But not being able to stop my tears.

"Hospital. Hes on life support. Chris managed to convince the doctors to not pull the plug till you have said goodbye" Pj whispered sniffling.

Phils on life support. Nothing could save him. I knew that. But i was grateful i would get to say goodbye.

"Weddings off" i mumbled. Pj nodded understandingly and went to go tell everyone what had happened and that the ceremony was cancled. When he came back i had semi composed myself.

"Take me to him" i told Pj sniffling. Pj nodded again helping me off the floor. He led me into a taxi and soon we were at the hospital. I threw a £20 at the driver and hopped out needing to get to Phil.

"What room is... Phil lester.. In" i panted looking despratly to the front desk lady.

"Room 112 right down the hall" she said kindly and i was already running. I knew i couldnt save him. But i wanted as much time as i could before they pulled the plug.

Before i got to the room Chris stepped out giving a sympathetic smile and patted my back. I didnt want sympathy. Sympathy couldnt bring back my best friend.

I took a deep breath and took a few paces before walking into the hospital room. The sight was heartbreaking. Phil was paler than usual, his hair was all over the place and his arms were all wrapped up. I could only guess it was the same for his thighs. The heart rate monitor was excruciatingly slow. But i knew it was forced.

I shuffled closer and held his hand in my own. It was cold. I couldnt help it. I broke down crying again. It was horrible to see him like this. I cried for what seemed like hours. When i calmed myself down i noticed a letter with my name on it.

It was Phils suicide note. To me. I froze up shaking slightly. Just seeing Phils handwritting made me tear up. Phil isnt going to write anything ever again. I wiped my eyes taking a few deep breaths.

I slid into the bed with him. I just wanted to feel his embrace a last time. I calmed down and opened the letter and began reading.

Dear Dan,
If your reading this than that means im no longer with you. I hope you find this after your wedding. I know how excited you are for it. Well im guessing you want an explanation for what i did. Amd you deserve it. Dan.. Im in love with you. I have been since 2009 when we first met. I love everything about you. I love your smile and how when you do you have only one dimple, i love how when you laugh my heart swells with joy. And i love how when you hug me i feel safe. And not so lonley anymore. And seeing you with Cat.. It started to break me. You left almost everyday and i just didnt feel like you needed me anymore. And when you brought her up and talked about how perfect she was i wanted to cry. When you told me you were engaged. I was scared. The thought of you moving out of the flat... Out of england for that matter. I found no reason to live. My life is not worth living without you in it. But you know what? Im glad she makes you happy. And please dont be too sad about me. I want you to get married and have kids. Promise me that Dan. But dont forget about me. Tell your kids about how clumsy and weird there uncle Phil was. I love you so much Dan. Ill be watching over you. Goodbye.
Love, your lion

I was shocked. And god was I sobbing hard. Phil loves me? How was i so blind? I remember now how everytime our hands would accidently brush his cheeks would turn bright red. How his smile would grow 100× bigger whenever i complimented him.

And the biggest shock of all.. I relized how every little thing he did.. I fell in love with. I used to find myself wondering how his lips would feel on mine.. Or how my mouth would fall open every time i saw him because god was he stunning.

All these things i had ignored. I was in love with Phil. I looked down at him sniffling and gently pressed my lips to Phils.

"Phil..if you can hear this.. I love you too" i whispered wrapping my arms around his lifeless body holding him close and just cried.

-20 years later-

Not a day goes by were i dont think about Phil. But i had gotten over the greiving part. I could listen to his favorite song without crying. I could watch anime again. And after years and years i can watch his youtube channel.

I kept my promise. I got married and i had 2 kids. Winston and Thor. In memory of Phil. I tell them storys of our crazg adventures and everg night they watch his videos before bed. There favorites are the phil is not in fires.

Even though they have never met him in real life. They adore him. We visit his grave once a week and the boys place flowers and just talk to Phils grave. Telling him storys about school and how there week has been.

I know Phils watching over us. And i know he is proud.