Hidden lust

Chapter 12

"Tiffany, get in!" She shouted when she had lowered the window. I didn't answer, and just turned to the direction the bus would be coming from. I quickly glanced at the bus timetable - 30 minutes isn't too bad. I took a step back from her car and totally ignored it. "Tiffany! You're gonna catch your death, get in!" She tried again, I folded my arms and refused to look. Call me childish, but I wasn't getting hurt even more. No way.

All of a sudden I heard a car door open and glanced quickly to see her getting out and putting an umbrella up before slamming her door shut. All I wanted to do was walk away, so I did. There was another bus stop further up the road anyway. I heard her calling me but once again I ignored her, you broke my fucking heart.

Then all I felt were tingles when I felt her hand on my arm, she spinned me around to face her and I could see she was getting wet too.

"Tiffany listen to me! Get in the car!"

"No"

Thunder rumbled through the sky and although I was scared I tried not to show it. I attempted to yank my arm away but she was holding it too tightly for me to get away from her.

"For fucks sake!" She shouted and then proceeded to drag me back to her car, I hadn't walked that far from it anyway but I tried to resist. I couldn't be in that small of a space with her right now.

She opened the passenger side door once we got there and told me to get in. Again I refused so she pushed me in by force ignoring my protests and then locked the door until she got in her side. As soon as she sat in the driver seat I tried to get out again but it just wasn't happening. 

"Open the door!" I ordered.

"No"

"This is kidnapping"

"No this is called being responsible, you could catch pneumonia Tiffany. Look at you you're soaking." 

"Let me go"

"No"

I leaned over to her side, brushing against her and making myself dizzy, I really liked this woman and she was making it so hard for me to get over her. I tried to open her door but that too was locked. 

I wasn't going anywhere it seemed so I gave up and tried to calm down by watching the rain pour down the window, it was coming down hard as it was bouncing a few feet off the floor each time it hit.
I felt Taeyeon move, reaching into the backseat for something. I wasn't going to look to see what it was.

"Here, take this." She said as she held out an oversized jumper. I looked at it and shook my head before turning back to look out the window again. "What's wrong with you?" She asked, I pictured her face being confused at me treating her this way but oh well.

 I saw she turned the heating in the car up which I was silently grateful for and then her hand that was holding the jumper flopped down to her lap, tired at being held up for so long. She then sighed and started the car.

"If I've done something, or said something to anger you or upset you, I'm sorry" she said as she drove through the rain. I didn't answer but I felt the tears threatening to spill out from my eyes after hearing the hurt in her voice. "Or maybe it's something that happened between you and Nichkhun or with Jessica....you know you can talk to me about anything right?"

Yeah, I've fallen for you hard and then you broke my heart. Will it make you feel better to hear that? I flinched when she rested her hand on my leg reassuringly and I immediately shook it off not liking how the sparks were still electrocuting me from the inside-out. I saw her hand hover above me before reluctantly going back to the steering wheel.

"So it is me...what can I do to make you comfortable Tiffany?" She sighed

"Let me out" I responded finally, that's all I wanted from her right now.

"But we are almost there" she reasoned.

"Let me out" I repeated

"Fine" she finally gave up and pulled over. "But only if you wear this and take the umbrella okay?" I nodded. "Do you know where we are?" I nodded again. "Okay." She sounded defeated.

She handed me the umbrella and made sure I put on her jumper before unlocking the car. All I could smell was her body scent on this jumper and it was killing me but I got out, put the umbrella up and closed the door behind me. I didn't dare look back because she hadn't left yet, she was watching me. It was only about an eight minute walk to my house so it wasn't that bad and it was the weekend tomorrow so thank the lord for that.

Once I got in, I immediately took off her jumper, threw it in the washing machine by itself and turned it on. I then placed the umbrella by the door ready for Monday and headed upstairs to take a hot shower.

Maybe I'm stupid, but I really felt something special with her. But I guess I'm just a delusional, love obsessed kid though at least now I can say I've experienced heartbreak. Plus even if she had felt the same way, it would never work. She's a teacher, she would get arrested if people found out. I told myself this was for the best.

Nichkhun came over later that night and proceeded to do what we always did. Have sex which was me lying down and him doing all the work. I kept my eyes on him, never closing them because I knew that if I did, I would see her instead. 

After cleaning himself up, he gave me a peck on the lips and left. That's how it always went, I was probably being used for sex which strangely didn't bother me, I just wanted to feel good just for a few seconds, which I had, eighteen seconds to be precise...I counted.

Jessica called me over and over but I didn't answer, I didn't want to go out, I didn't want to talk about it, I just wanted to sit at home, in my bed and sleep the days away.