Hidden lust

Chapter 23

I opened the door slightly when she knocked and as soon as I opened it I was met with a hard stare. I sighed and opened the door wider for her to enter and she walked past me, the chill of her exterior giving me goose pimples.

"Why did you do that?" Taeyeon asked in a cold tone, now turned around with her arms folded.

"This is the last year Taeyeon, he can't be expelled. He's working hard here to get the job he wants and.."

"He could have raped you Tiffany"

"He wouldn't have" I replied. Maybe I was in denial but I hoped he wouldn't have.

I watched as she bit her lip, but not in the sexy way...out of anger and probably trying to hold back from shouting at me. She was pacing up and down stressed to hell so I thought I'd try something.

"Can I please have a hug" I said with a sad voice while looking at the ground. She sighed and accepted my request immediately engulfing me in a tight hug, I felt better instantly.

"I'm not happy with you, he's gonna think you're gonna take him back babe" she sighed

"No he's..."

"I'm sorry" she interrupted, her words muffled against my shoulder.

"What on earth are you sorry for?" I asked confused.

"I tried to help you, but he was really strong and..."

I cut her off with a short kiss. When I pulled away her eyes showed shock and lust at the same time if that was even possible.

"It's not your fault Taeyeon"

"It is, if I hadn't have gotten jealous then..."

Again I cut her off and walked towards the wall trapping her against it. I caressed her hips and felt her rapid heartbeat against my chest as we were pressed together.
I felt her emotions through the kiss and I was sure she felt mine also. Her hands pulled me closer even though it wasn't possible and scratched her nails down my back.

Lips still connected, I led her to the sofa once again and we continued there. I heard her moan when she felt my tongue in her mouth and she gently began to suck it a little making a jolt go straight to my clit. It was now painful and it was bugging me so I rubbed against her once and heard her gasp. 

I took her hands in mine, interlocked our fingers and pinned them either side of her head. She groaned and pulled against my hold on her to touch me but I wouldn't allow it so in frustration she nibbled my lip and tugged making me shiver, god she's good.

I pulled away and looked down on her, she was so fucking beautiful and I was so lucky to have her yet I didn't have her at all and this is what bugged me.
She leaned up to take my lips again but I moved out of reach, she tried again but once more I leaned away. She flopped down on the sofa and tried to pull her wrists away, annoyed at my teasing but I had something to say.

"Taeyeon, I broke up with him so we can be together with no guilt hanging over me, I want to be yours" I sighed, looking away from her eyes.

"Tiff...it's hard..."

"How would you being my girlfriend make any difference Tae? We don't have to go further just because we put a name to our relationship...I'm not going to get all possessive and jealous over everyone you talk to just because I can call you my girlfriend. But this.....what we're doing, we're nothing better than friends with benefits which is shit because I fucking care for you and respect you more than that. But maybe you don't want to be mine so I guess...."

She leaned up with all her strength and bit my lower lip, dragging me back down since she didn't have the use of her hands. She kissed me but I was still worrying about what I had just said so I pulled out of reach again only for her to sigh.

"Tiffany, I really like you and I would love nothing more than to be your girlfriend..." 

She shifted underneath me, maybe uncomfortable but I wasn't letting her go, we needed to talk about this and seeing her pacing up and down wasn't going to reassure me.

"Then what?" I asked.

"I think that it'll be harder for us if we put a label to what we have together...." She wasn't making any fucking sense and I was beginning to get angry. 

"Well, maybe we should just stop then" I said, finally letting her wrists go and getting up off the sofa.

"Stop?"

"Stop this arrangement, like I said....I'm not happy being just a friend that you make out with. So either we are together or we're not." 

I gave an ultimatum and then told her to leave, that's fair right?

.......

The next day at school, I had a tutoring session with her so wanted to know her answer. I sped through my classes hit didn't see her at lunch. I didn't bother going to see her so I just waited until our class together.

When she walked in, she looked strange. She refused to look me in the eye most of the time and when she did she immediately looked away. I pulled out my phone, hiding it beneath my desk and texted her.

-I guess I know my answer-

I put my phone away trying to hold back my tears and ignored her when she brought our work around. When I was busy working, I glanced up and saw her sitting down at her desk and checking her phone. I saw her frown and so I immediately looked back to my work

A vibration in my pocket took me out of my daze so I pulled out my phone and checked the message from her.

-I'm coming over later- it said

-No you're not, my dad comes home today- I replied, still not looking up at her.

-Well can I take you out?-

I thought for a while but decided not to text back. I sensed her watching me as I put my phone away and I heard her sigh. Don't do that.

After class, I stayed in my seat and once all the students left, she came and moved a seat to the front of my desk.

"Well?" She asked

I looked to her confused

"What's the answer to my text?"

"I don't think that's a good idea." I sighed

"I can answer your question" 

"You've already answered it Taeyeon, I'm not blind and I don't really wanna hear the answer out loud thanks" 

"Please"

I looked up to her and saw a sad smile. I fought the urge to hug her and looked away, but finally nodded my head. 

"Can we go now?" She asked.

"My car is here, I'll drive home and then you can pick me up" I answered

"Alright."