Hidden lust

Chapter 22

"Nic, can we talk?" I sigh and sit down next to him on the bench outside the school at break time.

"Sure, what is it babe?" He asked as he held my hand.

"Um, I think....I like you Khun but this isn't working. Is it?" I didn't want to look into his eyes.

"What do you mean?" I heard his voice deepen, something he did when he was tense.

"I don't think you and I are meant to be together Nic. And I think you know it too, so I think it's best we end it here."

There was silence as he took that in, it was very awkward. I saw him make some distance between us before sighing, getting up and walking away. I held my head in my hands and I felt my heart hurt for him. Nevertheless, it was done now so I grabbed a snack from the vending machine and ate it quickly before making my way to Taeyeon's class.

I saw Nic was already in his seat, his head in his hands so I looked away, I didn't like to see him hurt. I sat down beside him, took out my books and waited for Taeyeon to come in.

"Who is he?" I heard him ask, looking at my side profile.

"Who?" I replied, I knew what he meant but of course I was going to play dumb.

"This piece of shit who you've fallen for? Or Is it Jessica?"

"I haven't fallen for anyone Nichkhun, I just don't think this relationship is going anywhere special. I care for you, but I don't love you. You don't love me..."

Taeyeon walked in and immediately sensed the tense atmosphere.

"Good afternoon guys" she glanced at me and I guessed she could see me becoming uncomfortable under Nichkhun's glare. "Partner work. I have some worksheets here so work through them for me please, thanks" she said and gave worksheets out to everyone except me. I got up and went to sit beside her and could sense her looking at me questionably but I was still so aware of Nichkhun's gaze on me also.

"Nichkhun, get with your partner please" Taeyeon said.

He actually listened and went to sit with Siwon at the back. I heard him scrape his chair back and just do every action with anger, slamming his paper down on the table, throwing his pen on the table....this wasn't going to end well.

"You may listen to music" Taeyeon turned to me once everyone including Nic put their earphones on and again she looked at me with that questioning look.

I had the slight feeling he may be listening and he knew decent English so I texted her.

-I broke up with him- I heard her sigh beside me

-I'm guessing he didn't take it too well?-

-Nope-

Once I sent that, Taeyeon could see my mood had been affected so we just got on with my work and didn't talk about it. 

Soon there was ten minutes left and so I packed up my bag ready only for Nichkhun to walk up to Taeyeon's desk.

"Can I talk to you?" He asked me. I nodded and he took me outside, Taeyeon's door was ajar so she would hear every word. "So if its not Jessica who is it?"

"It's not anyone Nichkhun, seriously why does it have to involve another person? I don't want to string you along when I don't have feelings like that for you"

"I really like you Tiffany and I thought you really liked me. We made love and I'm sorry but I assumed that meant you loved me" 

I hung my head low knowing Taeyeon would have heard that. "No Nic, I don't" I said before leaving him to enter Taeyeon's class to pack up the rest of my bag. He followed me though.

"I'm not standing for this Tiffany." He said, his voice stern.

"Standing for what Nic? It's a break up, you have to"

"No, I don't. We're going back to yours, now come" he ordered and grabbed my wrist tight.

"Nichkhun let go, you're hurting me" I frowned.

Taeyeon walked over immediately

"Nichkhun let her go please. If you need to sort things out, sort them out here but release her" she said calmly.

"I'm not letting you break up with me" he said simply as if I would forget all about it and agree to his demand.

"You've got to" I raised my voice a little and he didn't take to it kindly.

He started towards me and I backed off, Taeyeon tried to stop him but he was strong. I could see she was panicking a little by the way she tried to put herself in between us and by the way she kept her eyes on his but....he wasn't looking at her. Soon I was up against the wall and he had either arm each side of me, trapping me between them. He brought his hand up to caress my face and I turned away, he always thought force was the answer.

"Nichkhun let her go, come on" Taeyeon said, tugging on his shirt but he just pushed her away. 

"What's wrong with me huh?" He sneered.

"This Nichkhun! Do you not realise you're scaring me right now? Do you not realise that you force yourself on me every time we kiss? I don't want it and you frighten me" I shouted.

"Because forcing you is the only way I get it Tiffany. If we had it your way all this time you would still be a fucking virgin" he argued back. "Just let me kiss you and you'll fall for me again"

He grabbed my jaw, pulled my face towards him and connected our lips. I squirmed and looked to Taeyeon who was trying to pull him off but failing. She was shouting at him and threatening him with expulsion but he wouldn't stop, her eyes looked into mine full of worry. He was rough and his hands began to wander, squeezing my breasts and with his other hand he grabbed and held my wrists together above my head. He was trying to make me feel something I would never feel for him, lust.

My muffled pleas fell on deaf ears and I looked to see Taeyeon had gone, I started to panic but then she ran back in with Miss Lee and a male teacher who quickly ripped him off me leaving me to slide down the wall to the floor. Taeyeon soon knelt down to pull me into a hug. All I wanted to do was dig my nails into her back and tug on her shirt while I cried but I was aware that we weren't alone.

"Nichkhun...." I heard Miss Lee say sternly. I knew what she was going to say

"No don't" I cried, aware of how Taeyeon was looking at me shocked and confused. "Don't expel him, it's fine. It's between us" 

"Tiffany this is sexual assault" Miss Lee said.

"He's my boyfriend and we got a little too into it" I cringed when I said that and I know I had angered Taeyeon again when she immediately let go of me and stood up before stepping away from me.

She was probably angry that I was defending him, but I didn't want him to be expelled, he was just scared to lose me but eventually he'll get over it.

He looked down at me and I saw Taeyeon glare right back at him, he then offered me a hand to get up so I accepted. Looking in his eyes I saw he felt dreadful about how he had scared me. I gave him a kiss on the cheek to say he was forgiven. I saw Miss Lee give a sign to the teacher to take him out of the classroom for a minute so it was only me, her and Taeyeon.

"Tiffany, are you sure you're telling me the truth?" Miss Lee asked. "Because from what I saw he was assaulting you"

"No, like I said we...." urgh forgive me Taeyeon "We hadn't seen each other in a while and we both got excited about him coming to my house later..."

Miss Lee looked at me with concern but I think she eventually bought my story. I didn't even dare to look at Taeyeon.

Miss Lee then approached and gave me a hug "You know you can talk to me about anything right?" She asked and I nodded, it seemed she wasn't the dragon most people made her out to be. She let me go home and Taeyeon text that she'd be over when she finished work so there was no suspicion. I text her back to say 'okay' and then drove home. I was nervous about what was going to be said, very nervous.