Living With Captain America/ [2]( COMPLETED)

chapter 4

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Ella had managed to successful convince Pepper and Natasha she was feeling unwell and that was why she ran out of the Bridal store, of course that meant they told Steve to keep an eye on her. Every time he asked how she was feeling caused another bolt of guilt to shoot through her. Ella wasn't an expert on relationships but she was pretty sure lying to the man you love wasn't ever a good place to start. She still didn't know why she freaked out like that, just that morning the idea of picking out her dress excited her. Ella couldn't work out what was up with her; she loved Steve with all her heart so marriage was the next step right? Maybe she was just freaking out because she had no idea how to do this, its not like she grew up in a stable home with two loving parents. Maybe she was overreacting and the pressure was getting too much? She just needed some time to cool off and everything would get back to normal.

Whatever the reason was Ella was sure Steve knew something was wrong. She couldn't put her finger on it but he had been acting differently lately. She hated to use the word distant but that's what it seemed like. Was she pushing him away? No, Steve would have mentioned it. Still, it felt like his mind was occupied elsewhere. Was he hiding something from her like she was from him? This is Steve we are talking about, he isn't like that. Ella shook her head, she was clearly being paranoid.

It was this train of thought that led her to seek out advice from someone who would be completely honest with her no matter how much it hurt.

"Tony? You busy?" She called out through the work shop. Jarvis had informed her of Tony's location and she immediately went to find him. She really needed her brother right now, Tony would be able to reassure her she was just being silly and everything would be fine.

"I always have time for my favourite sister, what's up?" He asked wiping the grease from his hands and face before taking a seat up against the car he was currently working on.

Ella laughed, "I am your only sister." She was stalling and she knew it but suddenly now she was down here Ella couldn't seem to form the words.

"El, what's wrong? You're playing with your hair, which is never a good sign. Did Spangles upset you?" Tony pressed anger flashing across his features. Ella shook her head as she crossed her arms to stop her from playing with her hair, a nervous habit she picked up as a child. Ella took a seat next to Tony.

"Steve isn't the problem. It's me, something's wrong with me Tony." Ella sighed turning to face him. Tony for the most part looked confused.

"Gonna need a bit more information here."

"I was trying on dresses yesterday and I found the perfect dress for me and I freaked out." Ella explained trying to stop the tears she knew were forming in her eyes.

"Freaked out as in you when all Hulk on the Bridal store?" Tony joked

"Freaked out as in I had a panic attack and ran away from the Bridal store!"

"Oh."

"Oh? That's what you have for me? That's the great insight of Tony Stark?" Ella asked before taking a deep breath. "Sorry."

"Its okay, look I don't know what you want me to say. Are you having second thoughts about Steve?" Tony asked carefully.

"Never, I love Steve. I am sure about that. Its just getting married, it scares me. Hell it terrifies me."

"Why?" Tony asked and Ella had to admire how mature he was being about this conversation. Ella blinked causing a few tears to roll down her cheeks.

"Because forever is a long time. Steve is walking perfection and I am a Stark. By define we screw stuff up. What if it doesn't work out? What if I mess things up? What if Steve realises how messed up I am and doesn't want me anymore." Ella stopped then letting the tears flow freely. Tony pulled her closer to him wrapping an arm around her shoulder.