Living With Captain America/ [2]( COMPLETED)

Chapter 6

She kissed Johnny. Why the hell did that happen? Ella hated herself so much in that moment, how could she do that to Steve? He was the greatest guy in the world and Ella betrayed him. Deep down Ella knew it wasn't as simple as that, hers and Steve's relationship wasn't exactly at its best right now and there were a lot of factors to consider when trying to find out what led to the kiss between her and Johnny. Johnny was a great guy and Ella considered him to be a close friend in the short time they had known each other but she didn't have feelings for him, she was certain of that. Johnny was attractive but that was as far as it went, in Ella's view he wasn't a patch on Steve and the relationship they had built together.

Ella waited until she was in the safety of the tower's elevator before she let sobs rack her body. She slumped down the wall as the tears fell. She had ruined everything, she loved Steve with all her heart and she had thrown that way because of a stupid drunken kiss. Steve would never forgive her, she would never forgive herself.

Ella was so wrapped up in her thoughts she didn't notice the elevator doors open and Pepper step into the small space with her.

"Ella! What happened? Are you okay?" Pepper asked worriedly, crouching down in front of the younger woman.

Ella sniffed slightly before wiping the tears away, "I ruined everything Pep, I messed it all up. Guess I am a Stark after all."

"What are you talking about sweetie, ruined what?"

"Everything, I made a mistake, one little mistake. I screwed up Pepper and Steve is going to hate me for it." Ella replied bitterly

"Hey listen to me. Steve loves you and whatever has happened you can sort it out."

"I have to talk to Steve." Ella nodded, this was her problem and Steve needed to know and if he never wanted to see her again, Ella wouldn't blame him.

Pepper didn't even get the chance to reply as Ella gathered herself together and exited the elevator in search of Steve.

/

"Ella, what's wrong?" Steve asked as soon as he saw her. He had just come from the kitchen and could instantly tell something was very wrong with his fiancé.

"Sit down okay, we need to talk." Ella said gesturing towards the couch. Steve's piercing blue eyes met hers and she felt like crying all over again but she held it back. Ella sighed before taking a seat next to him on the couch.

"Whatever is wrong we can deal with it sweetheart, I'm here for you." Steve replied causing guilty to twist painfully in Ella's heart. She didn't deserve him.

"Yeah but after this you are going to hate me and you will have every right to. I hate myself." Ella confessed not daring to look at him.

"I could never hate you Ella, I love you."

"And I love you. And when you love someone you tell them everything right? No matter how bad?"

"Of course." Steve replied instantly.

"I'm scared about getting married. Not marrying you, I really do want to marry you, you have to know that. But I freaked out in my wedding dress and I ran. I didn't know why I did it at the time but I think I get it now. Marriage means sharing everything you are with the person that you love and I guess I was scared about losing myself, you know? I have always been an independent person but what if marriage changes that? What if it doesn't work out?" Ella began deciding it was probably best to start from the beginning and be completely honest about her insecurities. If her and Steve had any chance at a future then he needed to know how she was feeling.

"Ella I understand why you're scared but that is never going to happen. I wouldn't have asked you to marry me if I wasn't sure you were the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with." Steve said softly and Ella only wished she had told him sooner, maybe none of the other stuff would have happened.