Please, Love Me Forever... (a Jayy Von Monroe fan fiction)

I Can't Do This...

I picked up my phone and checked the time. It was only 4:12 and I still had almost three hours before school started. Now I really wished I hadn't gone to bed so early. I laid back remembering what was to come. I guess I may as we'll take this time to look my best. I grabbed a towel from my closet and headed into the shower. When I got out I immediately added some hair gel to the back of my hair and blow dried it. I put on a cute corset dress with some green checkered skinnies (mainly because the dress ended at the very top of my thighs and I wasn't a hooker) and lastly added my beautiful studded boots. I turned on my straightener and began straightening my hair then teasing it some so that I could pull my bangs to the opposite side and cover up the shaved side of my head. I added a green bow to complete the outfit. I added my usual top and bottom eyeliner and I looked pretty damn good. I added some chains and I really liked what I saw. I looked at the time and I still had an hour left. Oh god! I just wanted to get the day over with.

I walked quietly down the stairs to the kitchen. I decided to make breakfast for once. I had time so why not? I made my favorite dish, "Eggs n' Shit" (something I came up with). This dish was basically bacon, hash browns, sausage, onions, and green peppers all scrambled in with eggs. I only made this occasionally, but I could live off of this!

By the time I had finished my food it was about time to leave. I looked over myself once more in the mirror and threw on my green beanie before walking out the door. It was still kinda dark, considering I had to be there early, so I walked a bit faster than usual. I ended up at the school fifteen minutes before Mr. Sweet wanted me to be but I saw him pass by so I figured I was good to go. I found the office entrance and pushed the little red button. I saw the short secretary rise from her seat and look over at me. Soon enough I heard a buzz and opened the door. I couldn't help but feel awkward as I stepped closer to the busily typing woman before me. I cleared my throat.

"Uhm, I'm here to see Mr. Sweet." I spoke quietly.

"Mr. Sweet to the main office, please. Mr. Sweet to the main office" she spoke into the mike. I heard her small squeaky voice echo through the nearly empty school. She nodded towards the seats, letting me know it might take a second. I sat down and looked at my hands. They were now bruised and kind of swollen. I smiled a little at the memory of her body lying lifeless under me.

My thoughts were dismissed when I heard the "ding" of the office door opening. Mr. Sweet stood before me with a questioning look on his face.

"I walked faster than usual cause it was still dark." I said simply.

He nodded and waved his hand towards a red door that I assumed was his office. I got up and walked in taking a seat at a very long conference table. He sat across from me and threw me another apple. "I need to get in trouble more often" I joked. He only smirked slightly. Maybe that wasn't as funny as I thought it was. "Sorry"

"It's fine." he replied. "Jeremy won't be here for about another twenty minutes. You're pretty early. The only reason I said to be here thirty minutes early was because I wasn't sure how far you lived and I figured you'd leave thirty minutes before school was supposed to start. I'm sorry if you had to get up super early. So, are you nervous?"

All I could do was nod. I looked back down at my hands. I was terrified. Nervous didn't even cover it. I was about to speak when we heard the small box on the table beep. He hit the button and the squeaky voice I had just heard informed us that Jeremy was already here. I looked up at Mr. Sweet and he just smiled.

"You will be fine, I promise." He reassured me. I only nodded, taking one last bite from my apple and tossing it in the trash behind me. He poked the button one last time. "Let him in."

I looked back down at my hands. I was so scared. All the negative thoughts replayed over and over in my head. I can't do this, I thought to myself. Then I heard the door open. I heard Mr. Sweet tell the figure at the door to sit and I could see him point at the seat next to me from the corner of my eye. Oh my god. Why Mr. Sweet? Why?

The figure hesitantly pulled out the chair and I glanced through my bangs. I could only see from waist down without him knowing I was trying to get a look. All I could see was black ripped skinnies and gothic cowboy boot. This just scared me even more. Oh my gosh what if he's hot? I can't start crushing on him!! That'll just hurt me more! Snap out of it Skye! Just stop it!

"Jeremy, meet Skye, she will be your escort until you get used to where everything is." He sounded a bit too happy. "Skye..." Oh god no Mr. Sweet! No! "Say hello to Jeremy"

I looked up. Not knowing what I was going to find. And I just froze, wide eyed. I must have looked like a damn fool. My face got hot and I could feel my cheeks flushing. God damn it Skye! Say something you asshole! "Hi" I squeaked. Now you've done it! now he probably thinks your some freaky retard. Just kill me. My eyes were still glued on him.... "Mr. Sweet, may I be excused for just a moment?" he nodded and I quickly left the room.

What the fuck is wrong with me!!

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