Days Go By...

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by xXxMouseBabyxXx

by xXxMouseBabyxXx

We went back to my house. Living by myself had its perks. We crashed into my door, his lips still pressed to mine. I struggled to get my key into the door, our kiss intensifying. I finally unlocked the door and we fell to the floor but not breaking the kiss. I kicked the door shut with my only free foot. I lost all control of my body. The mystery man rolled me into the floor, crawling on top of me. He began kissing harder, nipping my piercings occasionally. I was enjoying everything, but at the same time I couldn't help but feel like something was missing. I didn't want to think about that right now.

I pulled him closer, wanting more. I rolled him over, this time I was on top. I sat there for a moment, that feeling kept coming back. I couldn't help but feel an empty space. What was I missing? I had everything I needed just beneath me. I looked down at the stranger who now looked unhappy. I smiled at him and continued to kiss him.

Whatever I thought I had been missing, wasn't important enough to mess this up.

Skye's POV

Tears have been pouring from my eyes for the past four days. Jayy hasn't texted or called or anything. He hadn't been in school since that guy showed up. The bullying got worse. Without him there to protect me, I was defenseless. But all I cared about was him. Was he ok? Did he forget about me? I just didn't understand. Then it hit me, he was gay! Why hadn't I realized it before? That was the only explanation. That's why he didn't love me the same way I loved him! That's how he was able to be so close to me, yet so far. The way he dressed and wore makeup. Honestly that's the only thing that made sense. Skye, you're so stupid!

I lye there, crying harder now. How could I have fallen for someone who would never love me back? I thought for a moment. Maybe I should call, just to be sure that he was alright. I dialed the number, contemplating on hitting the green rectangle below my thumb, my fingers lingering for a moment. I let out a long sigh and hit "call".

"Hello?" the familiar voice questioned.

"Jayy?" I said, the tears streaming worse than ever.

"Who is this?" Had he really wanted me gone that bad? He deleted my number? I began crying even harder.

"Never mind," I croaked, barely audible. "I guess I'm no longer important to you."

*click*

I pulled out my phone and let my fingers do the work. I had to at least tell him how I felt. We obviously didn't have a friendship anymore so I no longer had anything to lose. I watched as my fingers glided effortlessly, moving faster and faster. I looked over the long message to make sure that it made sense. Finally, I hit send. I just sat there and reread the message over and over.

Dear Jayy,

I loved you! I loved you from the moment I met you. I know that sounds crazy! Now more than ever! You were the only being in this whole school who actually understood me. Who actually cared for me. I never wanted to tell you cause I knew you didn't feel the same. You don't even understand how hard it was for me to not kiss you. You are the most beautiful being I have ever laid my eyes on. You are the sweetest guy I know and anyone would be lucky to have you. I guess you've found that person and I'm happy for you. But life without you is hell. I don't even know if you'll even care to read this considering you deleted my number. But I figured since you decided to stop talking to me, I have nothing left to lose. I honestly can't see how you could so quickly forget me. But I guess I always knew I wasn't much to hold onto. You are the one who gave me the will to continue. I will always cherish our time together. I love you, Jayy. I just wanted you to know how I felt. I'm still here for you. But it can't be if I'm unwanted. Please, please just tell me something. I need to know whether to wait for you or not.

Forever yours,
Skye