4 Years • jb

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| Max |

I can hear everything I just can't move nor speak.

It's breaking my heart to hear my baby  cry out for me and there's absolutely nothing I can do about it, I want for the life of me to wake up and just hold her. Her and my sweet Addy.

I'm never really mushy or sappy as you would say but I guess almost dying really changes a man. I don't even remember what happened one minute I was driving the next minute the truck came out of no where.

As for Malaysia she can front all she wants that I'm her annoying little brother but she loves me and I love her more than life itself and I don't know where I would be without her or my mother. Sappy again? Get over it.

"Do you think he'll wake up?" I could hear Ava whisper.

"I know my son. And I know he's a fighter honey, he'll wake up. Just think positive." My mom replied to her.

Just wake up Max, damn it. It's so easy just open your eyes, you can do it.

... I can do this.

| Malaysia |

"Have you heard anything?" I walked in Max's room holding Justin's hand.

"He's heart rate is steady." Ava said, "and he finally started eating through the tube."

"That's good, right?" I asked.

Ava sighed, "It's progress."

I nodded, "Where's mom?" She looked over at me, "She went back to the house to watch Addy and give the nanny a break."

"And how are you?"

She shrugged, "I wish I was better, I wish he would just wake up. I don't care if he's in the hospital for a while just as long as he's awake."

I walked over to her and gave her a hug. "I love you."

"I love you too." I said, holding back the tears. This whole experience is all around devastating, I don't think I've ever cried this much in my life.

"Do you want to go home?" I asked her considering the fact she hasn't left the hospital not once.

"To be honest no I don't, but I need clothes." She sighed. "I'll go get them!" I chirped... I was willing to do anything for her... And that's saying something.

"And Justin and I will bring you real food, I'm tired of seeing you eat nasty äss meatloaf." I said as I heard Justin chuckle behind me. For the first in days Ava semi chuckled agreeing with me.

"We'll be back."

***

"I think this is the longest we've ever gone without sex since we've been together." I blurted out.

Justin chuckled gripping on to the steering wheel with one hand the other on my thigh. "That was your call, whenever you want to just say the words."

"Gee babe thanks for letting me know."

He busted out laughing even harder, "What you can't blame me? I'm always ready for you." His hand moved further down my thigh, "and don't lie to yourself baby you're always ready for me too."