4 Years • jb

48;

3 Months Later;

| Malaysia |

"Lets wake daddy up so mommy can take a shower?" I looked down at Ella after breastfeeding her, I sat criss cross and held her in my arms. My little baby was only three months old and I still felt like she was growing so fast.

Justin and I are still engaged. We've been living at my house full time and using Justin's apartment just for when him and I wanna get away for a few hours alone when Max an Ava can watch Ella. Although it doesn't happen often because unless I'm working I don't like to leave Ella for long. I guess it's just me being a new paranoid mom.

I took my other hand and ran through Justin's hair, "Babe."

Nothing.

I leaned down and kissed his cheek. "Can you hold Ella while I take a shower?" He shuffled in his sleep before sitting up, he pecked my lips three times. "She just ate so she should be fine, if she fusses, here's her pacifier." I handed it to him and got up.

I stripped in the bathroom and stared at myself in the mirror. I hated my stomach, it definitely was bigger and the ugly scar from my c section just gets to me every single time I look at it. I try to think positive of it because I got the scar bringing my child into the world, but I have never been this insecure in my life. As far as my sex life with Justin the only thing we've done is make out every now an again. I'm just not the same woman anymore.

***

"You want to spend the day together?" Justin asked as I walked out of my closet. "I have work?"

"You own the company, I'm pretty sure you can play hooky." He smirked. I nodded, "Alright well what about Ella?"

"Nanny."

"We don't have a nanny."

"My moms in town." He spoke up. My head shot over to him, "Your mom is in town and you're just now telling me?"

"She just got here last night."

"Okay but I didn't even know she was coming, Justin you shoulda told me." I whined. I heard the doorbell ring, "Is that her!?" I panicked. He grinned and walked over to me kissing my forehead before handing Ella to me, "Yes, I told you, you an I are spending the day together."

I looked in the mirror while holding Ella. Pattie loves me as I love her, and I did see her in the hospital when Ella was born. I just still get a little nervous around her. It's weird and hard to explain.

"How's my beautiful grand baby!" I walked down the stairs as Pattie sprinted towards me. "Okay well I have so much pumped milk in the fridge that should last her 2 days whole day, although I think we'll only be out for a couple hours. " I told her. "I'll call every once in a while just to check in."

"Oh Malaysia you two love birds go have fun! Everything will be fine here." She assured me. I nodded kissing Ella's head as Justin did the same. He then grabbed my hand as we walked out the front door.

"Okay so what's going on? Where are we going?" I asked as he opened my door for me. He chuckled, "Can't you just ever let a surprise be a surprise?" He said before closing the door behind me.

I looked at him as he got in on the drivers side, "No because I hate surprises, you know that." He shook his head laughing, "But you'll love it."