Hey guys! Last chapter was a downer but I couldn't not do it, I'm sorry. I finally figured out how to end the story, just working towards it. There should be about 10 more chapters though! Maybe more. No sequel.
No lyrics for this one. Go find a clip for "Perfect" by Simple Plan and in a separate tab "Playing Dead" by Ramsay Fiction, play them when I tell you to.
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Jacelynne was dead, there wasn't much I could do about that. She was taken right away and I was taken to the hospital soon after. When I got home I stood in the bathroom of my apartment, staring blankly at my reflection.
TRIGGER WARNING: Play Perfect
"You're so fat Josh" a voice tells me, I turn to see a girl and boy, they have pale faces and are seemingly perfect. They are dressed in black, the girl in a black dress and matching shoes, her arms are covered with a sweater and her legs with tights. Her eyes are masked in what looks like makeup, but she has no eyes. The boy in a black dress shirt, black dress pants and black Dr. Martens.
I know who they are. Depression.
"You're ugly" the girl says
"Taylin killed herself because of you" the boy says
Another girl comes in wearing grey. Bulimia.
Another boy comes in wearing silver. Heroin.
The last girl comes in, she wears 2 colours, red and silver.
Self harm.
"You're over weight" says bulimia.
"Your skin is too perfect" says self harm.
"You're not good enough" says heroin.
I break down and flush the heroin, the blades and all.
OKAY YOU'RE GOOD: Playing Dead
I grab my phone and dial Sara's phone number, she answers on the first ring.
"Josh" she gasps, "are you okay?"
"No, Sara I need you to drive to the apartment. Now"
"Oh. Okay"
"Don't tell mom and dad" I say before hanging up, I toss some things in a bag and head to the door, I swing it open and Sara stands there.
"Rehab?" She asks, I nod.
You're fat. You're never going to get better. She doesn't love you
I turn on the radio. News about the car crash, I turn it off and just in time, we reach the rehabilitation center.
The end of my world.
When we get inside, a nurse greets me. The same one from a few days ago.
"Are you here with Jacelynne?" She asks, simply.
"No, for myself. Joshua Ramsay" I answer, Sara grips my arm.
"I need a legal family member to sign you off"
"Hi, I'm Sara Ramsay. Joshua's sister."
"I'm older than 18" I say. She nods, "right this way Joshua"
Sara hugs me and begins to tear up, I nod, hug her back and head towards my room.
117.
sadly this is the end of the book, I really hope you all enjoyed it as much as I did writing it, I deleted two of my chapters in order to write the sequel which will be available around April-May of 2014 :)
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