The Nobody

Chapter 4

He leads me upstairs and walks to a room and opens the door. It was a simple room. It didn't have much in it. But the stuff you would need. Like a bed and all the other shit. "This whole hallway is yours on this side. My suite is on the other side," he says.

He walks out and I follow him after I put my stuff down on the bed. He showed me the hallway across mines and he shows me his room. I couldn't help but laugh it was messy. "Geez don't you ever clean your room?" I asked him.

He just laughs shaking his head. "I do just not all the time. Besides its my place and I try to make it homey as much as I can," he says. I couldn't help but smile. We think alike but of course I would never tell him that. In all honesty I don't get why I'm here.

I usually don't trust anyone or listen to anyone. But I end up listening to him. Though I still don't trust him. But I must trust him a little if I'm willing to live with him. He was different then everyone else. I was so lost in thought that I didn't notice him staring at me.

I looked at him with a raised eyebrow. "I'm sorry did you say something?" I asked him. He shakes his head laughing. I couldn't help but blush a little. "I asked are you hungry? I was going to make us something to eat," he said. I blushed more nodding my head.

"I'll go make us something to eat while you go unpack ok?" He asked me. I nodded and headed to my new room and I started to unpack. Pretty soon in a couple of hours I'm done unpacking. I hear a knock on my door and I walks to it and opens it seeing Andy. "Dinner is done thought we would have it in my room," he said.

I nodded my head and I followed him to his room. I see the food set up and I begin to eat with him. It's really quiet between us. We don't say anything. "So how do you like the place so far?" He asked. I smiled a little. "I like it its not that bad actually," I said. He smiles at me. "Good I'm glad you like it," he says.

I nodded my head and finished eating. We ended up watching movies some of them I never seen but couldn't help but like. Others I've seen and I loved. I couldn't help but mouth some of the words. I didn't even know he was watching me until he said something.

"You love these movies I take it?" He asks me. I nodded my head blushing. I really needed to stop blushing around him. "Same well Ruby to be honest I'm glad your here. To be honest I was getting lonely being in this place all alone by myself. So I'm glad that I let you move in with me," he said.

My eyes widen in shock. Was I hearing him right? Why would he be glad to have me living with him? "I don't get why you would want someone like me living here. Let alone glad that I did end up moving here," I hear myself say.

He doesn't say anything and I was just about to get up and leave. When he stops me with his words. "Its because we have a lot more in common then you realize. Plus something is telling me to help you out," he says.

That's when I get a little angry and I glare at him. "I don't need anyone's help I'm fine on my own," I said. Before he could say anything else I storm out of his room and I go back to my room and I close and lock the door. I know I shouldn't be angry but I couldn't help it.

I don't like anyone thinking I'm weak. I wanted to be strong like the girl in my dreams. I hated being weak I despised it. I lay on the bed and that's when I drift off to sleep.

*The dream*

I'm in a room full of mirrors. Each mirror held an image of a girl facing different situations in life. It always starts like a movie. I see the girl walking and talking being happy and surrounded by friends. The girl seemed happy. I envied her.

Then like always she stops and faces me looking at me. "You know you can have this kind of life right?" She said in a sweet voice. I shake my head and takes a step back. She walks towards me and that's when I run away. I hear her running after me.

I try to find a way out and I look around. Then I see the other girl who waves to me and I run to her and she pulls me into her mirror and we hide in her room. I knew I could trust her because she was like me but she knew how to pull it off unlike me.

I know that I should try to change my life and not try to escape from the world and go into my dreams. But I couldn't help it. No matter how many times I tried to show people who I am they would just walk away and leave me. Including when I got hurt by the one person who betrayed me the most.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't notice the other chick trying to get my attention. I looked up at her and wondered what it is that she wanted me to know. "You know you gotta face your fears some time you can't keep hiding here you know," she said.

I flinch but of course she knew what I was thinking about she is me after all. But how could I change something that never wants to be changed? "How can I face them when every time I try I end up getting hurt?" I asked her.

She smiled at me sadly before she spoke up. "Its simple really if you think about it. All you have to do is prove to them that your not a nobody. Sure they will tell you otherwise but you can't hide from it. You have to be stronger than that. We are all you after all," she said.

I shook my head and looked away. "I know that but look at the outcome and the price I will have to pay to fit in. I don't want to be like everyone else," I said. "You don't have to be you think your the only one who's different and doesn't fit in? There are others like you. You just haven't opened your eyes to see them yet," she says.

I let that sink in and I think about it a little. She was right but I haven't found others who are just like me. But then again they must play the game and try to fit in. I didn't want to play that game anymore. Little did I know is that I would find them sooner than I realized.

I was lost in thought that I didn't notice that she changed her image and she becomes one of the people I  hate. That's when I get up and runs out of the mirror before she could get a hold of me. I kept running pretty soon I hear my alarm go off and I sit up.

*The end of the dream*

I couldn't shake the feeling and the words she said to me. I couldn't help but make it my mission to find others like me. I doubt they will be my friends.

But I can try to get them to help me be stronger. But then I feel my heart tighten up in protest. Should I try to be a somebody and become what everyone wants me to be? Or should I stay different. High school doesn't last forever.

But then I think about my parents and think about how they want me to be something I'm not. All of these thoughts were running through my head. Finally I get up and gets ready for school. I almost forgot where I was living. Until I went downstairs.