Mosaic

Louis Tomlinson, Chapter 5

Louis Tomlinson, Chapter 5

      I got into the car and drove, I didn't know where I was going, but I'd know when I'll get there. I soon came to a stop, I ran out of gas; just my luck. I was basically in the middle of nowhere with no gas and absolutely no cell service. I sighed, it's hopeless, I finally admit. What's Harry doing now? I wonder. Could he be cutting? Did I make him cut himself? Am I the reason he self harms? Did he cut after I left? Is he worried that I'm not coming back to him? All of these questions have answers to them, but I have yet to know them. I look around my surroundings, there's a diner then a gas station beside it, a few ways down is a small pre-k building with play equipment; I dug in my pockets for some money, I found nine dollars and fifty cents. I grabbed my keys from the ignition and locked the car doors, then I headed toward the diner.

     I walked to the long island and said to the older lady what I wanted, tea with some milk and two sugars along with a chicken tikka masala; spicy chicken is served with a creamy gravy-like sauce and a heaping portion of steamed white rice. She nodded and gave me a sweet smile, "Okay, hon. That'll be right out." I gave her a forced smile and whispered thanks. She came back in an hour with my food, "Sorry it took so long, sugar." "It's fine." I smiled at her. "Just call when you need the check." With that, she walked away.

     I mostly just ate the rice and a bit of chicken, I did drink most of my tea though. I called the lady, Von, back over for my check.  "That'll be five ninety-nine, please," she says. I nod and pull out a five-dollar bill and two-dollar bills. "Would you like your change?" I shook my head no, "No, but do you have a phone I could use?" She nodded her head and replied, "Follow me."

     I followed her into a little office in the back, she pointed to the phone and said, "Just tell me when you're done." "Yes, ma'am." She trotted out the door as I picked up the phone. I dialed the first number that came to mind, Liam's. "Hello?" I heard his voice. "Hi." "Louis?" he asked. "No, it's the Queen," I said in return rolling my eyes. "No, but where have you been? We've been worried sick." He scolds. "Listen, Liam. I don't know where I am, I went for a drive and I wasn't paying attention to where I was going. I've also run out of gas, but there was a diner, so I've eaten." I reply. "Can you ask where?" He says. I look around the room, trying to find a sign to where I am. "I'm at Barb's Diner." "I know where that is, there's a gas station right down the road?" He says. "I don't have enough money to buy the gas, can you just come here and get me? We can call someone to get my car tomorrow?" He lets out a sigh, "Yeah, see you in a few." 

     I wait outside the diner for a while, an hour passes until finally, Liam turns up. I wave to him and he pulls over to me, "Get in." I nod and open the door, "So why exactly did you take a drive?" I buckle my seat belt and say, "Because of Harry." "What's wrong with Harry?" Liam asked with his eyebrows arched. "He hurts himself, Liam. He really hurts himself, he has a lot of razor blades underneath the bathroom counter. I'm scared for him, how many times has he thought of just ending it all? What if one day I wake up and he's dead? I could have prevented it from happening, but instead, it was right under my nose and I didn't know." I say as my voice cracks. "Louis, you leaving him maybe made him feel worse. Just try to help him out and put yourself in his place, would you want someone you love to just disappear right after they find out you're secret?" He says to me. "I'm sorry, I was just in shock." "I know, Lou, I know... I am too." "Well, what're we going to do?" I ask. "I don't know, but we can figure that out in the morning. You're staying at mine tonight and we'll talk later, right now how about we try to get out of this shock." I simply nodded and laid my head on Liam's car window hoping to drift off to sleep.