Evelyn O'brien (On set of teen wolf)

Goodbye

A/N. This chapter may be sensitive to some people. TRIGGER WARNING: attempted suicide/ death

"Evelyn? Honey, McKenna is in the hospital" my mom says. She's crying.
"Wha-what happened" I ask. I have a feeling I know what happened
"Um well McKenna was found by Kate on her floor. She had a pill bottle in her hand" my mom takes a breath
"Kate called the ambulance. She was told not to do anything and an ambulance would be there soon. She's in the hospital now. She's breathing but very slowly." My mom finishes. She wipes her eyes.
"Do we k-know why?" I ask. I'm trying to hold back tears
"Kate texted me this Morning saying that they found Josh's body in a river near by. They also saw footprints. They think it may be a coincidence but they are gonna look further into it. They think it may have been from depression. But Kate talked to Jeff and Jeff said it was probably best that she not be casted because of her mental situation. She also said it wasn't the first time. She had done it when the accident first occurred" my mom says
"So what about filming?" I ask.
"The parts yours sweetie. Only if you want it" my mom answers quietly. I want the part more than anything in the world. But it was Mckennas role. I'll talk to her about it when I see her I think to myself.
"I'll talk to McKenna when I see her" I say
"K. We will probably go to the hospital later if you want to" my mom says. I realize that I'm still being held by Dylan.
"Is it my fault?" I ask Dylan when my mom leaves the room.
"God, no. You talked to her and you asked if she was ok. I could tell you were worried bout he when you ignored the call" Dylan says quietly.
"But it IS my fault" I say chocking back tears
"I should've answered her call. I should've talked to her more today. I shouldn't have let her hang up. I should've gone to her house I should've," I start saying while crying
"Maybe the car that hit them should've been going slower. Maybe Josh should've been checked to make sure his seatbelt was tightened. Maybe the paramedics should've looked harder for Josh. Maybe if her family hadn't been driving that day they would still be here. Or maybe if McKenna would've been in the car with them, everything would be different. Maybe it is your fault. Maybe it's Kate's fault. Maybe it's the paramedics fault." Dylan's says. Wow he's getting wise.
"So is it my fault?" I ask still crying.
"Of course not. It's no ones fault" Dylan says. I give a sad smile.
"The important thing is that she's ok" Dylan's adds. I nod. He's right. I should be thankful for that.
"Hey do you wanna go now?" My mom asks
"Ya sure" I say. I stand up and wipe my tears from my eyes.

I get into the car. Dylan and Patrick stay behind and my mom and I go to the hospital.
"When are we going back to Malibu?" I ask
"I was thinking of staying here until filming ends. Then you can just ride with Dylan." My mom answers.
"I'm not sure if I wanna take the part" I say. My mom opens her mouth as if she was gonna say something but quickly shuts it.
"Ok honey. Just talk to McKenna before you make a final decision. Ok?" My mom says.
"Ok" I answer. I lean my head against the window. It's still raining. My mom turns up the radio.

~"according to the California hospital. 14 year old McKenna Astin Johnson has just died" the voice on the radio gets quiet
"Johnson was in the hospital after attempted suicide. She was doing good until she was revealed to also have a tumor the size of a golf ball in her stomach. Doctors said that by the time they removed it there was a 99% chance Johnson wouldn't make it through surgery. She was taken off life support on June 26 2016 at 8:46pm."

My mom pulls over. She begins to cry
"Honey I'm so sorry" my mom leans across the seat to give me a hug. I sit still. I don't move. I just look straight ahead. I watch the rain and look to the sky.  My mom steps out of the car to call my... dad. And Dylan even though it's raining.
"I'm sorry McKenna. I was on my way. I promise. I'm sorry I didn't get there fast enough. I tried I really tried." I say. I begin crying.
"Please forgive me. I need your help. I want the part but it was yours. What do I do" I say. Crying even more. My mom must've heard me and came into the car. She wrapped her arms around me while I cried.
The thunder clapped more louder. The rain became heavier. And soon I couldn't cry anymore. My tears dried. My mom started driving. My phone lit up with texts and notifications. I turned it off.  The texts were from people who I hadn't talked to since I moved to California. I throw my phone in the back seat and sit emotionless.

So this is what I feels like to be sad.

A/N. Sorry if this chapter was sad. I tried not to go into to much detail but enough so y'all know why a happened.
❤️ y'all.