Pagdating ko sa yate ay natutulog si Jane. Inayos ko muna ang sarili ko bago ko siya ginising. She had no idea what was happened in there and I won't tell her because she'll only rant and brag me about everything and that's the last thing I want to happen dahil sobrang ingay niya.
Hindi siya nagtanong sa'kin kung nasaan si Keifer kaya naman hindi ko na rin siya hinahanap. Damn him. How dare him left me hanging in there after of what he did. I feel so ashamed right now. I feel so cheap because I let him does that at hindi ko talaga siya pinigilan! Bakit ba kasi pumasok sa isip ko iyon! Dahil nadala sa emosyon? But I can't help it. Ugh!Kapag andiyan siya feeling ko kontrolado niya ang katawan ko and I hate it!
Ilang minuto akong nakatunganga sa dagat nang nakaramdam ako ng gutom. Kaya pumasok ako sa loob at naghanap ng pagkain sa ref. I was searching of something sweets nang naramdaman ko na may nanunuod sa'kin sa likod. Tumingin ako sa likod at napa-atras ako ng konti. Seryoso siyang nakatingin sa'kin. I can't stare him for so long kaya naman bumalik ulit ako sa paghahanap ng pagkain. Ano ba Cha! Dapat magalit ka at ipakita mo sa kanya na hindi mo na-gustohan ang ginawa niya!. I should be the one who's giving him a cold treatment because of what he did pero bakit parang ako pa ang nahihiya sa nangyari. I cleared my throat and focus on what I'm doing.
"Hindi ka pa ba tapos djan?" bigla niyang sabi. I tensed up pero agad rin naman akong nakabawi.
"I think I'll go with apple" sabi ko at kinuha ang apple.
"Apple? You're almost there for ten minutes at apple lang ang kukunin mo?" he said mockingly. I glared at him. He looks amused on my reaction.
"Bakit ba? At talagang binilang mo ah?" I said annoyingly and he only smirked! This arrogant mule!
"What do you want to eat? I'll try to cook" he said at dahan-dahan siyang lumapit sa kinaruruonan ko. Umatras ako ng konti para hindi magkadikit ang balat namin. I can feel my hands are sweating.
"Huwag na" sabi ko at sabay lakad palabas ng kitchen pero agad niya naman nahawakan ang kamay ko.
"Look, I'm sorry if I left you in there-" he said and my jaw clenched.
"It's okay-"
"No, it's not okay. I'm sorry. It just. I can't"
"Kaya nga 'wag na diba?"
"Look, Cha. Listen to me. What happened in there. It was amazing. Just please don't ask me why I did it. Not this time" he said. I know my face right now was like a crimson red. It was amazing. I feel pet on my stomach gone wild! Tumayo ang balahibo ko sa sinabi niya.
It's not amazing. It was wonderful. I never felt like that before while he's kissing me. I feel like our world stops and only the two of us who's moving. I feel like our surroundings get blurred the moment he touch his lips on mine. The way he touched me. I feel like I'm safe and no one can ever harm me. I feel like I found my lost home. I know this is not an ordinary liking. Yes, I like him. I was in denial at first because in that short period of time I get to like him easily and forget about Tristan. When he's around, I forget about Tristan. In that short period of time he helped me to move on from Tristan. I know it's not a good thing to use other people but it wasn't my intention. I did not intend to like him in that very fast.
"I like you" bigla kong sabi. Hindi ko alam pero bigla nalang lumabas sa bibig ko. He was shocked of my sudden statement. He parted his lips and wanted to say something but he closed it eventually and licked his lower lip instead. I saw a glimpse of happiness on his beautiful eyes but changed it to dark eyes.
"What are saying?" he said mockingly.
"I said I like you" hamon ko sa kanya. Hindi ko alam kung saan ko kinuha ang tapang ko pero alam ko mamaya pagsisisihan ko'to. He looked amused and he bit his lips. Damn those sinful lips who made me realize at this early of what I feel towards him.
