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Instincts

I kept my pace up with all my thoughts about what she said crowding my mind making me feeling angry. Jason came running after me as Ellie stayed to comfort whatsername, i didnt mind that because i still had a smudge of care for whatsername and ellie cant help but make people happy so i let it go.

'Jimmy wait please!' A sweet voice calmed my mind instantly, all of me wanted to turn around and hug him but my mind was thinking other wise, it was taking my somewhere but i didnt know where.

A tear carved its way down my cheek, this made more angry because i dont cry, im not like that, i never cry! Somehow this made more angry and i ended up collapsing on the middle of the road i couldnt help myself, it just happened.

Jason took me home after my mini out break, i woke up later that evening at 3:30am my head was spinning, my mouth was dry, i was fidgeting and was desperate for a cigaret so i made my way to the front porch and rolled a cigaret sittin' on the step. It was really cold. As i lit the cigaret and my negative thought where burnt away like every thing else in my life.

The smoke filed my body making me feel mucky inside, it made me smile and i laughed at myself. Why did i have an out burst? I dont get emotional im st.jimmy!!! I laughed at myself once again. I must have been louder that i thought coz shortly after Jason came out and stood in the door way.

"What you laughing at?" He said with a smirk on his face, god damn he was so cute.

"Just me" i said simply as he came and made him self comfortable next to me. We sat there in silence for about 5 minutes, it wasnt awkward silence it was comforting silence.

"Common jimmy you need sleep" he said as he nudged my side playfully.

"Yes mom" i giggled and stood up and went back to the bedroom and went back to sleep.

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That morning... well afternoon i woke up to see Ellie and Jason upside on the dump we called the sofa ,listening to The Cure. God could they be any higher? Wow higher, english jimmy well done, you sure you arnt high. Before i realised i was having a conversation  with my self, i heard a bang followed by echoing laughter. Ellie had fallen off the sofa.

"You guys are such dorks" i said making them jump coz they where so out of it.

"Heyyyyy jimmy!!" A rung out lazy voice came from behind the sofa as i got a monster out the fridge.

"Hey guys" i said taking a sip and moving towards the sofa and pecking Jason's cheek and flicking Ellie's head.

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The day went on that contained of more music, drugs and laughter until...

"Hey what did ya do with whatsername?" I asked curiously i wanted to know if shes okay.

"Errrrrr" Ellie thought for a while. You could practically see the lightbulb appear above her head as she concluded a response. "I took her to the err hotel at the end of the road" she stumbled trying to remember.

I instantly got up and headed out the door. It was only when i was halfway down the street when i realised i had no top on. Meh oh well who gives a fuck its the suburbs. Before i got the the hotel i saw whatsername standing out side the bus stop, she looked at me and a spark of hope shone across her eyes making them sparkle.

"Oh jimmy" she pleaded chucked herself on me, i shook her off and slapped her.

"I-Im so sorry" i stuttered realising what i had just done. I mean she was a bitch that deserved a bit of that but i had never hit her in that way before it felt so wrong.

"What the fuck was that for!" She spat angrily.

"S-sorry it was just instinct" i said still shocked at myself.

"What are you doing here?" She asked as if nothing had happened.

"To see what is going on with the wasteland? And why did you come back to me?" I said hastily.

"First its falling apart because of you, me and that basted 'JJ', secondly coz i have nowhere to go" she growled and  poking me.

"You" i whispered taking a step closer "mean" taking another one "nothing" i said now our noses where lightly touching as i wrapped my arms around her squeezing her ass. I gently brushed my lips across hers, bitting her bottom lip making here breath heavy. To kiss her? No not at all im with Jason, i like to mess with her a bit like she did to me.

She leaned in. I pushed away.

"Nothing!" I said raising my eyebrow and smirking.

"Just instinct" she mumbled as i kicked a stone and made my way back to Jason's.