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smashing windows

holy fuck i never realised how shit the fist like 5 chapters actually are, im so sorry i put u through that lmao. i feel like my writing has at least got a bit better??? i hope coz thats complete bs 😂, anyway back to the story.

jason walked closely beside me as we made our way out to find a police station. it was just us two this time, it was about 3 in the morning and the rest weren't in a state to be doing this coz we could realllyyy get into trouble, big time. thats why i love it so much, the more trouble u could get in, the more fun it is.

we snuck around the station looking for the best entrance, talking to some prisoners through bars that where covered in barbed wire and all other kinds of defence, as i knew my way around that defence i was able to give a few some grinded MD. we found a door that one of the prisoners had mentioned and took into account that it wont be too hard to get in, or we could get through one of the windows at the top.

climbing up through all the defence and getting cut badly by some, we made it too the top. jason had his penknife that had a very small sharp point on the end, just perfect for breaking windows. we where prepared for the amount of chaos and sirens when we entered so we proceeded to go in. shattering glass fell through the hole, instantly sirens went off along with shouting of guards and cheering of the ones in jail. fuck i was only 19 and im doing shit like this, it felt amazing but almost normal and everyone should have expected it coming. we jumped down to the second floor and went on to spray paint a master piece, it was a police banging another officer with a stripper in the background looking rather pissed off. we had planed it of course and both of us where quite good at drawing quickly, it looked pretty good until people came running after us. i saw two shot guns lying on the table. holy fuck this was going to be the best thing ive ever done, i grabbed one and chucked the other to jason. i shot the annoying sirens and aimed at the 2 guards and Jason aimed at the other two. this was my chance. "right, i think its time you guys fucking stopped trying to find us and lock us up here be cause quite honestly this place is bullshit and you've never even tried to help us. all you want to do is cause us pain when we are already fucking drowning it its" jason turned around and shot two fires at some locks on the prisoners to get them free. they ran out and found other guns and aimed the same as us, they where about 40 and looked like they had killed someone before. "all these people are fucking misunderstood and you have no need to lock them up y'know you could help them but no!" i screamed i was so angry at life at the moment all of my energy was put into this speech. the trigger was pulled on the 'no' and i felt something different shoot through my body guilt, hatred, shock, sadness and anger all at the same time. i couldnt explain the feeling and i wanted to do it again. i could feel jason look at me with fear. shit. i had scared him for the first time ever i had scared him, i dropped the gun instantly and the guards swarmed around the dead body "what the fuck are you doing" shouted one of the older man, he looked disgusted i had dropped the gun. i went over to jason words could escape my mouth "FUCK" i screamed in anger kicking and screaming and punching and crying. i collapsed on the floor in tears, jason still standing in shock untill he realised we had to get out before any one came. he ran out the back door leaving me behind, i picked up my gun and ran after him leaving the two prisoners left to do what they wanted.

what was i going to do i had scared him i had never done that before to him, i could do life without him, hes keeping me alive. i started crying intensely and couldnt control myself, this made me even more angry making me scream in agony, i wanted to run after jason but i was stuck to the floor hidden in a back street i couldnt do anything. i was hopeless.

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my body being jogged up and down in a heavy motion, hands gripping my legs and shoulder. i felt safe and i didnt know why, my eyes slowly opened to see Diegos tried face concentrating on where he was going. "wheres jason" my croaky voice produced. he didnt say anything for a while, he looked down at me then looked back up, almost ignoring me. shit what have i done. i turned my head to see we where close to waste land and i felt scared to see the judgement on everyones face. he placed me on the mattress, my senses still not quite there until a quite soft voice said "im sorry i left you behind" and a gentle touch on my shoulder made me no longer scared. i looked up through the slits in my eyes, i saw black and badly bleached hair, a kind face and worried deep eyes. "jason?" the word barely came out my mouth. "fuck, im so so sorry if i scared you, ive never done anything like it, please want me back please" i blurted out feeling tears erupt from my hardly opened eyes, the groups had never really give off much emotion until now. "jimmy i never left you" he whispered in such a comforting voice. "i love you remember" he spoke once again. "fuck" i whispered to myself and buried my head into him, to hide from everything that had just happened. i was only 19 what the fuck am i doing with my self.

heck the ending was kinda cringy but hey what can ya do