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slow mornings

lying, feeling nothing once again. my body is a broken bell that no longer chimed sweetly, but screamed for help. i hate feeling like this, my eyes not even open and already hating the light, muscle in my arms weakened by the thought of living. an empty pack of cigarettes lay hopelessly next to the mattress making me groan and worrying Jason who slept warmly and easily. "what is it babe?" a sweet voice escaped his mouth even though i wasn't facing him. no words seemed to want to come out my mouth. i groaned again, turning around and burring my face into Jason's welcoming chest. he stroked my hair which i never normally liked, it cant have been nice for him either, my hair is all greasy and felt like hay. he moved his hand down from my head to my chin and gently lifted my face up so my eyes connected with his. his eyes read a questioning look wanting to know what was up. i pouted, still not able to form words, his eyes went on for ever like the starry universe. soft lips plated all around my face until he reached my lips, our lips moulded together perfectly but still created sparks. he pulled me on-top of him whilst still kissing and his hands shifted down my bare back as he sat up. his intercut hands placed on my waist as i straddled him. his studded belt felt cold on my crotch even through my jeans but i still stared deeply into his eyes. i felt as is he was watching my mind wake up to soon enough tell him what wrong.

"no cigarettes" i mumbled in a grump like a toddler and folding my arms.

he kissed my forehead and grabbed his own pack, pulled one out with his mouth with a smirk, eyes still locked, and lit it right in front on my face. the smell tickled my nose but instantly made me want it more, so i pushed him back onto the mattress, as i followed, took the cigarette out his mouth, kissed him and placed it in mine. he giggled and smirked once again, i shuffled down his body n lay flat on top of him, feeling his loud heart beat. i looked up at him, he gave me a cheeky grin and started to kiss me all over, he made his way down my chest leaving a trail of hickeys once again. he was more teasing but it still turned me on. both of us giggling and kissing with slight rubbing in places making me bite my lip slightly and getting exited. out of nowhere a can hit my head as i was undoing Jason's belt, "do you guys ever stop?!, ive got a hangover here and you guys arnt making it better!" Ellie shrieked whilst the rest where laughing. we didnt even realise everyone was awake already and watching us, i guess we were so lost in eachother.

filler chapter coz im lazy as hecK and i only have wifi like once a night coz im away n shit so i cant update much, but im trying!!!!

ughhhhh i want a relationship like Jimmy's and Jason's :/ like life would actually be okay lmao hahah

anyway that was a shit excuse for a chapter. hopefully next one will be exiting.