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My hair in my eyes, and the sun kissing my skin. The grass brushes my pale beaten arms and the breeze of fresh wind soothes the gentle heat that touches my lost body. My eyes open slowly and heavily, all dry and crispy, to a dark, damped wall room with cracks of light coming in from the drapes. The sheet that lay upon me and Jason barley touched me but seemed to be dappled in red patches of dark velvety blood. Stinging pains shot repeatedly in my right hand and the cold air stabbed at my fresh wound.

Jason was fast asleep in a happy dream, you could see by the way his lips curved at the sides. I silently watched him breath in and out, his body lay like a pice of art that had just been finished and put on show in a museum. He looked like a fresh fruit impossible not to touch and be apart of. I reached slowly to my bed side table to get my box of fags and my lighter, not letting my eyes leave such beauty. I slipped a fag out with my mouth proceed to light it, the flame felt warm and comforting and i let it burn the cigarette for longer because i was so mesmerised. My lungs filled with the evil smoke that tricks me every time and ex-hailed it into the air. Jason's little nose twitched at the smell and took a deep breath in as he stretched and rolled over to face me with his big happy eyes.

'Hello gorgeous, how are you feeling? You look better than last night'. He said calmly as he cautiously tucked my hair behind my ear and picked up my wounded hand.

'Yeah I'm alright, wanna puff?' I stated and passed him the cigarette knowing he longed for it. He took it and inhaled the same as I, he sat up and but his head against the pealing wall. I wanted to change the mood as it seemed quite down, so i took the fag back (put it in my mouth) picked him up and swung him on my back, ran him too the living room, plonked him on the sofa and tickled him till he almost cried.

The tickling stopped gradually when Ellie walk in the room with a big grin on her face. 'Boy do i have a surprise for you two!' She said as she ran back to her room.
'Sex, drugs, alcohol, probably something illegal' Jason said to me as she was out the room.
She came back with a little pouch and jumped on the sofa with us.
'See somethin illegal' Jason said looking at me with a smile.
'LSD boys, I got it cheap and thought you guys would like to join?' She explained as she handed us some.

'Sure' we both said at the same time.
'3,2,1' Ellie counted down of when we should take them, as i was unaware of this i had already taken mine and was happy about it too.

About an hour passed and we where trippin bad but it was fun as hell. Ellie and Jason went out to go to a party i was going to go too but i stayed home as diego was ill and didnt fancy going, but my head was still spinning and i was still falling. I was smiling to myself at the pretty colours the surrounded me and made me feel happily dizzy. I slowly snapped out of it when i realised someone was knocking at the door, i pulled my self up to go answer it, and looked through the peep hole to see who it was.

Shit

It was the police, i tired so hard to pull myself together so i wouldn't be caught for this as well as all the other shit they are here for so i put some sunglasses on to cover my eyes. I opened the door half naked and spoke. 'Good morning officer, how may i help you?' I said with a slight smug tone without meaning too.
'Afternoon sir, is this the house of Jimmy Hill?' He said with a monotoned voice.
'Yes, that is I, how do you do?' I mumbled in a silly voice that i just couldn't help myself doing.
'Right'
Even though my heart was beating fast and i felt so anxious inside i was so relaxed and happy, so many pretty colours and happy things surrounded me. What does mr.police officer have to tell me this time huh?
'Im sorry to tell you this sir,,,but you mother has died, she killed herself this morning with prescription drugs. Im sorry.' He said with a dash of sympathy but not caring to much considering it was me. I didnt say anything for a while and went to go get Diego up because i was so unsure of what was happening. 'Oi, Diego wake up there is someone at the door'. As he is the most sensible in the house this happens quite often, so he instantly got up. 'Why are u wearing sunglasses indoors?' He said with his morning head on. He walked over to the door as i stayed in Ellies room so i could listen to the murmuring.

What, just what??? Im so confused??? How did he know i live here and why did mum do that and why isnt he here to arrest me and what??? My head was throbbing and i could feel tears on my face but i wasn't crying, this was all too much.

I lay down and just listened. I am so tired, no matter how much i sleep im always tired.