Brokenhearted

Chapter 11

Chapter 11

Caitlyn's POV

          "You're in control, pressing pause on my heartbeat, Someone stole all the air, so I can't speak, Now I know the chase is on, I feel as though my time has come" the catchy beat of 'Lightning' boomed loudly in the air.

          I forced my eyelids open to see the time - 7am. UGH. I hate waking up early, as I'm not really morning person, but I'm left with no choice under such circumstances.

          I'm planning to fly back to America alone without anyone knowing. I need to take a break from all that has just happened.

          Why am I doing this to myself? I love Nathan, but he hurt me really deeply this time. I thought that I could trust him as he promised to.

         All his promises were lies. All LIES. I shouldn't have forgiven him. I really regret my decision. If I hadn't agreed to be his girlfriend, none of this would've happened and I wouldn't be so hurt right now.

         A tear fell down my cheek as I knew I was going to be apart from Nathan for a very long time. I might be away for perhaps one year, two years... I don't know.

          I really don't want to leave this place of lovely memories with everyone who has treated me so well, including Nathan who has given me the love that I've never had in my life.

          You may think it's really ridiculous of me to leave when things are going pretty well between the both of us, but my real purpose of leaving is to see how much I mean to him.

          Will Nathan find another girlfriend if I leave him? Will he forget me? Yes, he will, I tried convincing myself in hope that I will free all my troubles for this trip.

          I decided to put everything aside now and embark on a new journey. I snapped out of my worries as I stepped into a refreshing, cold shower.

          With that, I rummaged through my wardrobe full of clothes, deciding what to wear. I wanted to have a new start, so I decided to wear something different this time.

          I slipped into a dark blue Minnie Mouse vest top and a pair of high waisted rainbow dyed shorts before applying some jet black mascara and liquid eyeliner, together with some compact powder and pink lipgloss, before putting on my fav converse which I bring apparently everywhere with me.

          I tiptoed over to Nathan's room and opened the creaky door slowly, praying that he wouldn't wake up. Thankfully this little sloth is a heavy sleeper.

          Nathan looked so cute when he was sleeping. I really missed his scent, his personality, his cheekiness, his humour, his awkwardness and how happy he makes me feel whenever I'm around him. Then it struck me. I really love Nathan and I can't bear to leave him.

          You idiot, he was the one who hurt you. Where was he when you needed him most? Snogging another girl when you were in distress! He promised to protect you for the rest of his life but look at what happened! He broke your trust again! He's not worthy of your love, Caitlyn. A voice echoed at the back of my head.

          I'm sorry Nathan, I thought. "I love you" I whispered before closing the door gently. Time to leave, Cait! I told myself.

          I looked at the time on the watch - 7.56am. I was 2 hours early for my flight! I'm always so early cause I'm really a very organised person.