I have come to realise what life can be about and how it can beat you down. We are in a financial state which is terrible and the fact that she still wants to send money to her boyfriend kills me inside. Does anyone know how stupid people fall for what is not true!! Well i do i have experienced it first hand.
In this moment in time i am happy and on the edge of a break down. Not everyone seems to understand it and the fact that i always end up being disappointed by others,well lets just say it aint all sunshine and rainbows. I seem to become wiser by the day and weaker in my heart. My life seems to have become one terrible disappointment by the day. Surprisingly i havent cut myself in a few weeks after relapsing again. I need to find a way to deal but how.......
